the confessionals.

2006-07-02T10:49:00.000-07:00

MOVED

http://myspinmusical.livejournal.com

ok bye bye.

2006-06-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

We can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with out previous lives nor perfect it with out lives to come.

We live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal is life itself? This is why life is always like a sketch. No, 'sketch' is not quite the world, because sketch is an outline of something, the groundwork for a picture, whereas the sketch that is our life is a sketch or nothing, an outline with no picture.

-Milan Kundera

2006-06-24T06:24:00.000-07:00

ahh... preuniversityseminargroup14islove.

loads of things to do now.

till then.

2006-06-24T06:13:00.000-07:00

heartstring tugging at my heartstring. Such a familiar tune, what a familiar sorrow. You left me just like that, without even saying a decent goodbye. Is this what you really want? The changing bright clouds to a sky of mismatched and misunderstood dark, gloomy and irritable clouds? What a shame. Where's the fairness in that? Man, the serendipity of it all?

The cruel irony of life.

2006-06-24T03:23:00.000-07:00

a Shakespearean adaptation from Twelfth Night.
appearance vs reality
deception & facade

dont these universal themes ring a bell in your life?
i would think so.

racism. period.

okay i watched this with miss lian and sihan.
this movie wasnt THAAAAAT freaky. i wasnt disturbed at all.
oh wait. that was a lie.
i was kinda scared
oh wait. that was another lie.
i was freaked out.

*in the Cathay theatre*
Miss Lian: OMG that nanny's face is damn freaky la
CUTE ME: ...

okay. go watch it losers.

2006-06-04T05:27:00.000-07:00

Pre-University Seminar 2006.
SRJC-NUS collaboration.

SEMINAR GROUP 14.
GFC 28.

thank you for being part of my life.
it was enriching, emotional and exciting.

more PREUSEM photos @ http://www.friendster.com/ignatious
and yeah most of the photos are in a CD. i shall upload them soon.

all right.
loads of things to complete.

till then.

2006-05-21T21:03:00.000-07:00

and with that,
I, the captain of Millennia's debating team, want to thank everyone.

2006-05-14T08:16:00.000-07:00

always proving the skeptics and cynics wrong,
always proving our cases stand,
always proving our worth...

Millennia Institute's Debating Team

Go Us.

okay more essays to whack.

2006-05-09T19:56:00.000-07:00

All I ask by DH Lawrence

All I ask of a woman is that she shall feel gently towards
me
when my heart feels kindly towards her,
and there shall be the soft, soft tremor as of unheard bells
between us.
It is all I ask.
I am so tired of violent women lashing out and insisting
on being loved, when there is no love in them.

Am in the school library.
ahh. preusem briefing later @ SRJC.

2006-05-01T20:37:00.000-07:00

Hell and night
Must bring this monstrous birth to the world's light.

Othello, Act I. Scene III

bring it on, 05A3 debaters.

2006-04-16T04:21:00.000-07:00

hello people.

2006-03-30T06:08:00.000-08:00

D.H Lawrence - Sons and Lovers

Synopsis: An intensely autobiographical novel recounts the story of Paul Morel, a young artist growing to manhood in a British working-class family rife with conflict. The author's vivid evocation of the all-consuming nature of possessive love and sexual attraction.

Tennesse Williams - A Streetcar named Desire

Set in the French Quarter of New Orleans during the restless years following World War Two, A STREETCAR NAMED DESIRE is the story of Blanche DuBois, a fragile and neurotic woman on a desperate prowl for someplace in the world to call her own. After being exiled from her hometown of Auriol, Mississippi for seducing a seventeen-year-old boy at the school where she taught English, Blanche explains her unexpected appearance on Stanley and Stella's (Blanche's sister) doorstep as nervous exhaustion. This, she claims, is the result of a series of financial calamities which have recently claimed the family plantation, Belle Reve. Suspicious, Stanley points out that "under Louisiana's Napoleonic code what belongs to the wife belongs to the husband." Stanley, a sinewy and brutish is as territorial as a panther.

i love kinokuniya. :)

2006-03-29T00:50:00.000-08:00

hahaha. damn funny la. some guy asked me to blow him.
HAHAHAHAHAHA

dude.
no can do..

2006-03-26T04:36:00.000-08:00

freaaaakkkyyy. yeah.

2006-03-18T05:35:00.000-08:00

But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?
It is the east, and Juliet is the sun.
Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon,
Who is already sick and pale with grief
That thou, her maid, art far more fair than she. . . .
The brightness of her cheek would shame those stars
As daylight doth a lamp; her eye in heaven
Would through the airy region stream so bright
That birds would sing and think it were not night.
--Romeo and Juliet Act II Scene II

man this is damn romantic la.

2006-03-14T17:59:00.000-08:00

Lifehouse - Undone

I can see it your eyes you're hurting
But pain is part of learning who you are
All these truths can sometimes be deceiving
When your whole world comes crashing to the ground

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yeah, When you come undone
When you come undone

You know I can't be like everybody
Cause I can't tell you what you want to hear
I don't know if I can make it better
All I know is I will be around

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yeah, When you come undone
When you come undone

When all your plans are made out lying on the floor
And all your dreams are turning into nothing more
When all your hope has left you know you're not alone
Just hold on
Hold on

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yeah, When you come undone
When you come undone

2006-03-13T03:31:00.000-08:00

felt as though i was ripped off but still, it was hilarious to see the different movies ive watched over the years spoofed.

busy week!

<3

Hey guys! Thanks for tagging yeah?!?! LOVE YOU ALL!

2006-03-11T03:42:00.000-08:00

My blog is worth $16,936.20.
How much is your blog worth?

got this off andrea's who got this off victoria's who got this off alicia's.

2006-03-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Mariam! :)
Happy 18th Birthday Wan Ching! :)

And yes, slogged my weekends away.
bacardi breezer.
this movie was SO hilarious.

raaaah! i want a nanny too!
ok bye bye.

2006-02-27T12:58:00.000-08:00

paddle pop. <3

2006-02-25T05:40:00.000-08:00

Death. you can run but you cant hide.
Man, this show is darn freaky.
met up with ivan today in the evening and caught Final Destination 3.
haha. damn exciting and thrilling.
I was so hoping that the three of them would cheat death...but...
haha.

gotta get back to work.

To you two: i know things are pretty difficult for you girls but i would really appreciate if you two can just cool off and reflect on whatever that've happened. remember, time will heal everything. so give yourself some time...and breathing space. do not let some trivial issues to ruin this friendship. it is just not worth it. you girls might not see what im seeing...but if you look at whatever that have happened in perspective, you will figure it out.

2006-02-19T04:19:00.000-08:00

I watched this with ShinLing. Damn nice! I held back my tears and everyone was sobbing in the theatre man. Haha. A seriously thought-provoking show. WATCH IT PLEASE.

Think: where do we exactly draw the line between school's right to punish and parent's control over the school's administration of punishment?

are parents interacting enough with their children today?

do they REALLY know their kids well?

oscar-worthy flick. enough said.

Watched this this afternoon after I studied in the library. A different take to typical korean-style love flicks. Seasons start and end. And so does love. =)))

Good Night people!

2006-02-15T00:11:00.000-08:00

dont you hate the weather these days? the day gets warmer with chillingly-cold breeze, and just then the sky gets darker and gloomier, the winds howl even louder and moves even stronger. it starts to rain heavily......... for like five minutes. And after that? The sun starts to shine brightly. and what do you get? A TROPICAL WARM AND HUMID SINGAPORE.

im in the school library right now. I just had a KFC treat from my debate teachers for doing relatively well in our SRJC Debates. It was nice to meet up with them again and we're gonna be up for the ACJC Intercols real soon and by then, probably Nabil and Matthew would be training us already.

the total defence day "Project Runway" was all right, I guess. Our class did not manage to win any of the top three spots but honestly, being shortlisted to be in the finals was good enough already! And to Nadia and Bridget, kudos to you all for putting in effort to collaborate on the designs of the costume. Faizal, haha you were awesome today lah. Thanks for being so sporting. And to my darling zerofiveathreers, your presence and support is much appreciated! =))) Guys, remember, it's not about winning that matters, but how we stand up again after we've fall. We will be back on top again...soon. ;)

V-DAY! Well that was yesterday, but still! I have so many people to thank lah. Thank you 05A3 for being so sweet to wish me and the faces you guys gave upon receiving my vday notes were precious moments man. Nadhirah and Mariam, SWEEEEEEEEEEEEET. enough said. To you, youve made me the happiest boy alive. <3333333

Man I have SO much work to do tonight. I have already started to mug for my CTs. I dont want to see myself doing badly cuz of my procrastination and lack of effort to put in my very best. I want to make sure I live up to my expectations and whack all the papers next month or so.

Miss Cheah just passed me Tutorials 7 and 8 just now and YES, we are still being bombarded by our human geog teacher with countless tutorials to complete. I am gonna complete the new ones and put mu mind at ease. This year, i gotta admit is really demanding. You have to work on your own pace and make sure you can keep up with the rest. It aint easy but Im glad Im doing all right. I will NOT let myself FALTER and do badly in my tests and examinations. Haha.

Getting a tuition for maths soon. WOOHOO. im gonna chamge for good. after two years of delusion.

Im damn sleepy can. HAHA. And I had a terrible tummy ache this morning. Im feeling a lil better now. UGH.

Anyhow, Im gonna get off now.

2006-02-12T19:36:00.000-08:00

Lovesong

He loved her and she loved him.
His kisses sucked out her whole past and future or tried to
He had no other appetite
She bit him she gnawed him she sucked
She wanted him complete inside her
Safe and sure forever and ever
Their little cries fluttered into the curtains

Her eyes wanted nothing to get away
Her looks nailed down his hands his wrists his elbows
He gripped her hard so that life
Should not drag her from that moment
He wanted all future to cease
He wanted to topple with his arms round her
Off that moment's brink and into nothing
Or everlasting or whatever there was

Her embrace was an immense press
To print him into her bones
His smiles were the garrets of a fairy palace
Where the real world would never come
Her smiles were spider bites
So he would lie still till she felt hungry
His words were occupying armies
Her laughs were an assassin's attempts
His looks were bullets daggers of revenge
His glances were ghosts in the corner with horrible secrets
His whispers were whips and jackboots
Her kisses were lawyers steadily writing
His caresses were the last hooks of a castaway
Her love-tricks were the grinding of locks
And their deep cries crawled over the floors
Like an animal dragging a great trap
His promises were the surgeon's gag
Her promises took the top off his skull
She would get a brooch made of it
His vows pulled out all her sinews
He showed her how to make a love-knot
Her vows put his eyes in formalin
At the back of her secret drawer
Their screams stuck in the wall

Their heads fell apart into sleep like the two halves
Of a lopped melon, but love is hard to stop

In their entwined sleep they exchanged arms and legs
In their dreams their brains took each other hostage

In the morning they wore each other's face

Ted Hughes

2006-02-06T13:47:00.000-08:00

haha i miss the time when i saw bits and pieces of tissue papers flying around the class with victoria, samantha and fauzi. it was hell loads of shit. HEH.

Our remedies oft in ourselves do lie
Which we ascribe to heaven.
~William Shakespeare, All's Well That Ends Well

2006-01-31T05:42:00.000-08:00

Spent my entire afternoon in the library. One of the most productive days I must say! Anyhow, met up with Ivan in the evening for dinner and yes, MOVIE! We watched Cheaper by a Dozen 2! What can I say? A fabulous feel-good movie with so much lessons to be learnt. Eye candies everywhere la. There were quite a few times when my eyes were brimmed with tears and I would feel strangely-warm in the ice box I was at. A must watch!

We're going out for a drink soon yea?

goodnight, everybody.

2006-01-30T06:44:00.000-08:00

In T.S Eliot's words, "The winter evening settles down, with smell of steaks in passageways, six o'clock". Heh. Desolation. a sense of helplessness and this omniscient tranquility...man i could feel it...right in... ORCHARD ROAD?!?!?!?

haha. Yup, you got it. Serenity in town. How could that ever be possible? Dont ask me why, but I guess it's day two of the Chinese New Year and thats why not many people are available to swing by town and besides many shops are still closed. Well I was in town today with my CL A friend wOrXxXx, Shin Ling a ling, to watch the Memoirs of a Geisha. It was a fabulous film, I must say. It was adapted by Arthur Golden's MOAG and yeah the plot and characters was emotionally-charged with love, lust and loads of politics in the movie. One just simply cannot help but to feel that there is just more than it seems in the arena of Geishas. My personal favourite has gotta be Michelle Yeoh man. She has definitely, along with Gong Li proven herself as a veteran and kudos to Zhang Ziyi too for her debut in Hollywood. It was mind-boggling to see how geishas kill one another and plot against each other to vye for the TOP GEISHA in the Hanamachi.I guess it's their way of living and i am in no position to critique their culture and tradition. And oh! That young girl who acted as Zhang Ziyi was SO spiffy cute! heh.

"Geishas are not to love, to feel, to hope. They are to sing, to dance and to entertain."

I bought a book from Borders! I couldnt find a pair of sneakers. Im thinking of Nike Dunks though. Oh well, I dont know much about Nike. I guess i'll have to ask... SAHA. haha. and he is the sweetest boy ever la.

We went window shopping after that and had GELATO ice-cream. Haha it may be kinda expensive but hey, it's 97-99% fat free! In the evening, both of us adjourned to Wheelock Place for our dinner at Fish and Co. Man the food was as usual, delectable and sumptuous. I hate that waiter la. He was ignoring us for the whole time and whenever he sees me, he gives me a STUPID GRIN. Like whatever for man...? Anyhow, Shin Ling thinks that my shirt looks cool yesterday. Haha random.

hrmph. i cantupload the photos we took at fish and co.

alright got to go.
on a mugging spree today. heh.

2006-01-28T22:52:00.000-08:00

one of the many facets of the astoundingly-enriched and amazing culture of the Chinese. Ladies and Gentlemen, wishing you guys a Happy Chinese New Year( of Dog) and may you have many good returns!

2006-01-22T02:52:00.000-08:00

the chronicles of zerofiveathree.
more to come!

watched a movie recently. well not in the theatre but i rented a movie at jurong point. HOTEL RWANDA. such a disturbing but yet inspiring show. when the world closed its door, he opened his arms for them. hutus and the tutsis. racial differences is not a newly-coined concept in recent years. it has gone a long way since many centuries ago. but in a civil age in the technological era, this concept is carried out in proliferation, and sadly, always in third world nations. it was really exciting to see the plot revolutionize to different powerful interplays within the different characters.

Went for Seoul Gardens with Su, Hanafy, Saha, Shiva, Mal and Bridget yesterday! I was so goddamn stuffed la. Went to hang out at Causeway Point with Bridget and Malisa after that. Thanks guys for such an amazing day.

oh and saha, you're cool.

eh my blog entry is so fragmented. pardon me. ohoh i bought a new lifehouse album!
ugh see what i mean! fragments.

2005-12-31T04:06:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Lifehouse - Chapter One

The year is coming to an end in approximately four hours time. Well, what can I say to sum all the entire year? I must say this year has to be one of the best. It marks the year when I transitioned myself from a secondary school to a pre-university level. Life has pretty much changed upon stepping my foot in Millennia. Im finally 18 years old and yes, it IS a big deal for me cuz I believe it is a signal to tell you that you're growing so fast that you really have to make so many decisions in life and one fatal move puts you to square one all over again. I wouldnt say Ive made perfect and accurate decisions this year but at least I know I was able to think on my feet and act accordingly in most situations. I do hope that this expectation will follow me through as I grow even older in life.

What do I want to achieve in year 2006. Gee, I dont know. The basics, I suppose.
1. to eat healthily and lose weight! (eh, im already like going vegetarian okayyy)
2. spend more time with my friends and family!
3. excel in my academics!
4. take part in pre-university seminar 2006!
5. to save more money!

Haha, I dont ask for much in the year 2006.

Ive watched two movies recently. I met up with my rj friend, Benjamin to watch the Chronicles of Narnia. It wasnt as bad as what some of my friends have said. In fact I kinda like the plot and the effects. The lion looked pretty realistic and I love those kids. Cool beans. It was great meeting up Ben after such a long time. I must say he is one of the friends whom I really treasure a lot. Not only he is such an intelligent asshole but I am just so impressed by the way he presents himself, in such eloquence and maturity. When I studied with him, he was also such an immense motivation to me and yes, he's definitely going places. Ben, take care of yourself when you're going into the army next week yea? We will meet up for lunch soon with Suliana okay? Love you, dude.

Met up with my some of my secondary five peeps - Jia Ai, Ziqing, Janis and Serene. I had so much fun with them. We went to the kbox and belted out the jaychous(as usual), some other cheena singers which are darn obscure to me, heh. And after which, Serene left for another appointment and the four of us(yay! reunion!) went to town to watch The Family Stone, which is really, such a must-watch movie? In fact, the best christmas movie after Noel. Such a strong cast and storyline and honestly, it is YOUR loss if you give this a miss. We headed to some cafe for spaghetti for dinner and later a nice long bus ride home, which was pretty much filled with laughters after laughters. Thanks guys! Meet up soon with the rest okay? ;)

This year's new year's eve is a quiet affair to me. Supposed to club at IndoChine with Ivan, to have some Baileys and hoochies but yea, we've decided to come out for a drink next week instead. Today will be really crowded and gross and besides it rained for the whole entire day and I bet it's cold and wet out there now. Ugh. And Arthur, Serene! We must hit MOS soon okay? Wanna club with you guys soon!

Went out for dinner with Yee Kien and Wan Ching for some *applause please* VEGETARIAN dinner. Haha. No biggie, but hey, I've been eating more vegetarian meals than meat alright? Well, it isnt really a problem to me since Ive started to eat quite a lot of vegetables and I am real picky with my choices of meat. Like I only eat chicken and a little fish and prawn. That's all. Haha I am just darn fussy with my food lah. We went to window-shop after that and yeah, it was pretty much a nice and peaceful new years eve dinner.

The academic year of 2006 at Millennia Institute is commencing on the 3rd of January and haha, yeah, I am expecting a heavier amount of workload but I know zerofiveathreers will as usual, rise up to the occasion and excel in everything we do right? WOOHOO. 05A3.......WOOSH! haha thats damn gay.

alright im gonna get off now.
till then.

Happy New Year!
=)))

2005-12-25T00:03:00.000-08:00

YeStErDaE hOrX, mOi WeNt OuTtIe WiV Mah cHiNeSe A fReNs wOrXx. HAHA i should cut that out. Anyhow, I had a blast yesterday! I spent my christmas eve with my CLAn and man, it was hell loads of fun. We went to kbox and started singing our jaychous and what not. We were practically screaming to the microphones but hey, we still did sound pretty angelic haha, probably Christine lah. I cant really sing for nuts. Went to watch Perhaps Love(!) AGAIN in town since Christine havent watched it and we were compassionately-benevolent enough to accompany her. It was cool cuz the first time I watched it I missed a whole good ten minutes of the film and now I got to watch it. So I totally had the entire complete picture of the movie. After that Shin Ling had to go home to spend time with her family, Christine and myself went around town to get absorbed by the festivity and the christmassy spirit. We took a long invigorating walk from wisma to plaza singapura. Haha. insane right. We snapped so many photos ah. Haha silly girl lah. To my CLAn: thanks guys! i had so much fun! To Christine: I had fun last night! We're the snack buddies! WOOHOO. ahha.

Chatted with Yee Kien yesterday on the phone. Ive realised that Ive not seen another of my favourite junior - Weili for eons! We must meet up for Crystal Jade soon man, with miss reb lee.

Slacking at home today...but not for long. Im out to my grandmother's place for a christmas dinner in the evening with my brother. Tomorrow must chiong all my assignments. Now what this means? SCHOOL IS ABOUT TO START IN A WEEK! AHHHHH!!!

till then.
Merry Christmas. =)))

2005-12-24T20:02:00.000-08:00

hey there. got this off bernard's web.

10 Years Ago I was:
struggling with math, reading storybooks aloud to my friends, playing in my primary school ecogarden (ooh i miss that injured rabbit)

5 Years Ago I was:
heh. in search of an identity. a purpose in life.

1 Year Ago I was:
busy with my o levels. falling in love. waiting to enter millennia.

Yesterday:
i was in town.

5 snacks I enjoy:
vegetable crackers. rollercoasters. semi-sweet chocolates. m&m peanutes. julie's peanut cracker buscuits.

5 songs I know all the words to:
any songs by lifehouse. jaychou.

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
finance my overseas study ambition. get my bro a car. get my mom a bigggg house with a garden. treat my friends to a nice dinner. and save up the rest.

5 places I would run away to:
vienna. greece. new york. paris. salt lake city.

5 things I would never wear:
3/4 pants. singlets. basketball shorts. basketball jerseys. soccery jerseys.

5 favourite TV shows: gilmore girls; boston public; friends; ally mcbeal; the oc.

5 Bad Habits: leave my tap running like some niagara falls when im brushing my teeth. being super critical and bitchy. eating too fast. leaving my aircon on for the whole day. touching my nose.

5 biggest joys: music. books. friends. family. her.

5 favorite toys: my duck. and my duck. myduckmyduckmyduck.

5 fictional characters I would date: i think reese witherspoon is hot.

2005-12-22T06:47:00.000-08:00

study sesh with christine! IMM for some snacks!

lunched at dintaifung with ivan today. bought a Local Brand teeshirt and had gelatos! yummers ah!

2005-12-20T19:31:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Switchfoot - The Beautiful Letdown

Did some christmas shopping yesterday and bought myself a new bag and a buttondown shirt from Topman! Woohoo. I am one happy boy now. Had lunch with Dhirah at Fish and Co's too. It was great to catch up with her anyway! Ooh! I went to Cineleisure to visit Shiva! It has been eons since I last saw her man. Eh girl, we must hang out soon alright? I must say this year's festivity is way better than last yera's christmas season. Maybe because Ive watched movies with some christmas settings like Noel and Perhaps Love. Town was darn crowded yesterday and everyone was just busy doing their last minute shopping, clutching to their bags and looking all hyped and ready for the coming Yuletide season. Well personally, christmas is nothing spectacular since we celebrate it EVVVERRYY year but what matters is that you're spending time with your loved ones and even if you're alone(for whatever reasons), always remember you arent exactly alone cuz you're a child of god and you're loved for that. =)))

Yet another movie pursue! I met up with... MOi cHinEsE A fRwEnd, ShIN LinGx nOrHx~~ and yea we watched Wu Ji - The Promise. The plot wasnt that spectacular but the graphics and special effects was phenomenal. Im pretty hopeful that this film would garner some awards in the technicalities side. Im supposed to watch Chronicles of Narnia with Ben, my rj friend who has GLEEFULLY graduated from rj this year with honours and top marks and admission to University of Chicago and he's also conveniently away to Taiwan for vacation and he BEGGED me to watch the movie with him next week. Oh well...Im nice, really.

Met up with my Sec 5 classmates recently! It has been such a long time since I last saw them. Once again the super crazy quartet dominated Cavanas and haha we laughed and laughed for godknowshowlong. It feels really good to be with them for you have already known them for at least five years and yea it was definitely a magical get-together with my old friends. Thanks guys and I hope you guys had as much fun just as I did.

Oasis is coming to town on February! I cant wait! 160 bucks for the concert and yes, Im definitely going! Victoria! We SHALL go alright? ;)

alright im gonna get off now.
going outtt.

2005-12-16T05:22:00.000-08:00

Watched this with Ivan a few days back. I know some of you guys are probably gonna go "sheesh" but hey, it is a pretty rad movie! I heard they have spent quite a lot of moolah to shoot this film but I must say it was all worth it. It is definitely a show to watch if you're looking for an idea of how was America like in the pre-war days and how strangely-romantic it is to have a mighty ape falling in love with a damsel constantly in distress. Quite an exciting film with many action and subtle love scenes in them.

MoIx wAtcHeD tIs wiIiVee MuaH ChInesSeE 'A' FWeNx ToDAeX mOrHxx! Haha my bad, Shin. AHHH i missed out at least erm ten minutes of this film! Shin was late la, haha but it's alright girl, I forgave you. Man, what can I say? This film is fantastic. Im not surprised it's gonna be screened in the Venice Film Festival. The triangle love story has been excellently brought out emotional and sensual interplays with the three main characters. I particular like that Korean guy who acted as a muse in the movie. I dont know, but I feel so "bewitched" by his presence. Ok im not making any sense am I? It was a pretty sad ending but hey, I guess it was deliberate since the director probably wanted us to interpret the ending on our own. What can I say? Sometimes what you're looking for is right where you've left it behind.

And now...for the zerofiveathree pulau ubin trip.

woohoo.

2005-12-11T08:04:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Lifehouse - Somewhere in Between

PHRWHOOAAHHH! I had such a long day man. Went out with my first three months zerofiveaoners! Ian, Dinah, Joette and Joyce! It was a blast man. We went to church and had lunch at Carl's Jr. The servings was like hell big ah but the food was fantastic, totally worth the money man. We went to catch a movie at Suntec's Eng Wah and we watched, sigh, The Descent. My third movie in third day consecutively. This movie, what can I say, was just WAYYYYY too freaky and scary. God, we were all so darn affected during the movie and even Ian was like covering his face at some parts. We were like testing each other Geography facts during the movie and yea, at least I got to see a nice limestone cavern in the Appalachians Mountains. Oh! They even mentioned the Marianas Trench! At least Ian was smarter to mention the stalactites, stalagmites and limestone pillars. HAHA that ass.

anyway, this movie is just for you if you're with your friends and are gunning for horror and thrilling adventures in the cavern itself. GO for it. I swear, you will be darn disturbed during the movie cuz that was how all of us felt in the theatre! God, I swear I was all squirmish during the show ah. AHH. We went to the Sky Garden after the movie and yes, laughed like idiots again. I honestly lost count of the many times all of us broke out into hysterical laughters and screams today. Aww. Gonna miss that man.

We are planning to meet up next Sunday for a movie marathon + mahjong stayover at Joe's place. I bet it's gonna be a blast!

oh, got to know joyce's friend today. Darrenn. Nice to meet you dude, hope to see ya around. =)))

before i go,

2005-12-10T07:40:00.000-08:00

another day. another movie. met up with ivan again in the evening to catch Pride and Prejudice by Keira Knightley. I must say Jane Austen is such a brilliant author and am I glad to study one of her publications next year! This movie has such amazing cinematography with amazing settings and a wonderful cast to portray the true essence of the 17 and 18th century women, and of course the knights in shining armour.

There isnt much grappling issues to debate about from this movie but it is interesting to note the kind of lifestyle the English led in the past. For example, their mannerisms. The girls did the curtsies and the boys did their bows. I find that erotically-hot. HAHA. Their entertainment(indulging in balls and dancing camaraderies), idea of love and marriage in 18th century England and how all these differ from our present day society.

If you were to ask me, I think love in the past is way different than the kind of love we see in the past. Some may think that Im hocus-pocusing my concoction of ideas but really, love in 18th century England is so romantic and pure that there isnt really much motives or reasons behind it, for a simple reason, they just love each other.

Of course there is an exception that some may be forced to get married but STILL, think about those who really loved each other not for their money, their looks, their power and standing in society(stereotypically, unlike NOW), but rather for who they are and how they perceive themelves and the world. They understand that the truth of truth is love and it is by far larger than anything else.

My friend sent me an ebook of Austen's Pride and Prejudice and I am still reading it. I shall finish reading it soon cuz I have like three more books to read! AHHH!!! Oh OH! My brother gave me my early christmas present! Mine is like HOW cute ah. DUCKS! WOOHOO! I HAVE THIS strange fetish for ducks. haha I guess thats the reason why I have never wanted to eat duck meat.

church tomorrow and LUNCH with zerofiveaoners!

the pride and prejudice of love.

2005-12-09T05:35:00.000-08:00

Watched Aeon Flux with Ivan today. I gotta say this is one good movie. I am not exactly a thriller+sci-fi+action movies kinda fan but this movie had it just right. One question is, is our future really in a state of flux? Or are we just being delusional?

ive been blogging at diary-x. so yea.

2005-12-03T23:00:00.000-08:00

and that's su. my kick-ass buddy in class.

2005-12-03T17:58:00.000-08:00

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	seven (you rock)
your best quality is	youre responsible
your worst quality is	you worry too much
this is because	youre unique

Quiz created with MemeGen!

2005-11-29T06:44:00.000-08:00

got this from someone's blog. kinda cool actually.

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?
___ start the water and get in. haha isnt it the most logical thing to do? ok maybe not but if i do the other way...i will probably get a water shock. heh.

2.) Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle?
___ ahaha this question is so cool.yeaaa i do...at times! thats how lame i can get!

3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the Herbal Essence commercial?
___ er why would i do that?

4.) Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?
___ er again, whatever for?

5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?
___forced?!? i dont know maybe when i was young? but im like already 18. so why would i be doing that? ugh.

6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
___ definitely.

8.) How old do you look?
___ personally i think i look my age. but apparently many would beg to differ, they think i look like an army boy or undergrad. thats how sad ah.

9.) How old do you act?
___ hmm...i dont act my age. i age the act. hahahahaha ok im not making any sense am i?

10.) What's the last song you sang?
___ jimmy eat world's work.

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything?
___ hmm. ntu's sch of comm and info? is that considered one?

12.) What are your plans for the week?
___ out out out.

13.) Do you kiss with your eyes open or closed?
___ ahhh closed. hehe. room for much imagination mah.

14.) What's the sexiest thing about Condoleezza Rice?
___ the way she empower her agendas.

15.) Does anything on your body itch right now?
___ i do bathe, you know.

16.) Who's the sexiest famous man alive?
___ i seriously havent got the slightest idea.

17.) where did 17 go?
___ to my hips and thighs(haha thats a damn hilarious answer, lise!) er well... i dont know... to the days of yore in secondary school. pretending to be a mugger.

18) Does every family have a crazy uncle or is it just mine?
___ probably just yours.

19). Have you ever smuggled something into America?
___ do i look like an illegal immigrant to you? nincompoop.

20). Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?
___ why not? but...you gotta KNOW how to play. i definitely do not see how attractive a guy or girl may appear if he/she screws those notes.

21). Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
___ we have great swimmers and polo players..and the rest just try too hard.

22). Have you ever finished off the popcorn and ate the junk from the bottom of the bag?
___ haha oh you're not supposed to do that?!?

27.) Can you fix your own car?
___ i will be able to when i get one

28.) Would you kill George W. Bush yourself if you were guaranteed to get away with it?
___ im nice. haha.

29.) Should guys wear pink?
___ YES! but only if they can carry it off, or else they'll just look gay or miserable.

2005-11-29T04:05:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Zhou Jie Lun feat. Lara - Shan Hu Hai

Whoa. I actually stayed home for the entire day! Pretty much kept a close watch of the SEA Games action and basically rested a lot. I realise you will pretty much feel tired and restless when you're not doing anything constructive. Well that was how I felt today. What to do? Mothers asked me to stay home today to wait for the Best Denki delivery man to deliver our SPANKIN NEW ... .. . WASHING MACHINE! WOOHOO! haha. Am I glad to see our rickety old leaking washing machine being replaced! HEH.

I have my whole week planned out already! And argh! Geography fieldtrip commences next Monday! I will only be back on Tuesday evening! Hey OCians, let's remember to have our shower at Changi Airport before hitting Seouls for a meal or something lah! Haha. I cant wait for the trip to end. Planning for this fieldtrip can DIE.

Did one limestone DRQ today. UNDERPERFORMED. haha. Took like 15 minutes for one pathetic DRQ. darn it.

argh no mood to blog liao.

2005-11-28T09:05:00.000-08:00

my second entry of the day. in like what an hour's time? raaahhh!

sigh. my ntu peeps. ziheng from njc and xiaowei from ijc. they are such nice people.

2005-11-27T08:07:00.000-08:00

John Grisham's The Last Juror

I realise that my attention span to books have been becoming rather-short-lived as I struggle to finish at least half of a book. This is bad...really bad. I understand how much pleasure I can derive from reading...be it physical or psychological ephoria, but i dont know, i always seem to be able to allow distractions of all forms to hinder me from completing a book. I wonder what will Walt Whitman say to me if he sees me.

I've decided to change.

I shall vow to complete the above mentioned book, not because it is an obligation but because of the immense benefits it bring. I will and I must.

wahh...im so serious.

ugh had a terrible stomachache last night. AHH!

2005-11-23T21:00:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Kit Chan - SEA Games Manila 2006 theme song - Live O Dreams

From the day I ended my promotional examinations, I did nothing but to party and play all day and night. I was pretty shagged and burnt out...from all the summertime bacchanalians. I expected myself to spend the entire November holidays doing absolutely nothing constructive but to slack. Dont get me wrong, that is by no means I will not be doing any forms of revision, I scheduled a date to start revising but I thought before the day I start to build up my momentum in Pre-Uni 2, I will engage myself in exciting activities to enrich myself.

Well, I was wrong. NTU selected me and another Millennian to attend lessons at Nanyang Technological University(NTU); at the School of Communications and Information Studies(SCI). That was certainly good news. I am having so much fun with students from other junior colleges and yes, it is definitely tiring. Every single morning at 730am, I will be in the train, half asleep but yet anticipating the lessons at SCI. Not only have I been doing my assignments dilligently but I asked the professors so many questions about admissions to both NTU and NUS. I definitely aspire to be meritocratically-eligible for NUS Law. However, if that fails, I have my NUS Lit/Geog or even NTU SCi.

Looks like this holiday Ive been doing loads of planning and deliberation in fact, whether to stay on in Millennia or not and even where to go after my A Levels. Im glad I did all these necessary preparations and thinking. Im all set to face the new challenges in 2006. I will not be complacent. I will prioritize. I will not let any doubts overwhelm me. Ah...the wonders of growing up.

The only constant in life is change, as paradoxical as it may sound. Agree? I never had a decent conversation with my brother before(okay maybe i do, but it wouldnt sustain for more than five minutes?) but today we had a nice dinner together at heh, MacD's. We talked and shared our lives with one another, well basically just updating our lives with each other. I felt weird initially but hey, it became really natural and I throughly enjoyed the dinner I had with him. I may have my differences with him but at the end of the day, one thing remains the truth of the truth... he's my one and only elder brother. And I wanna do him proud. ;))

The mornings have been wet and cold. AH! You can almost see me clad in my sweater at NTU like all the time. haha.

good night.
go bryan! go marcus! go lionel!
do team singapore proud k! aquatics all the way!

2005-11-20T13:56:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Jay Chou - Fong

"My father blessed me fervently,
Yet did not much complain;
But sorely will my mother sigh
Till I come back again." -
"Enough, enough, my little lad!
If I thy guileless bosom had,
Mine own would not be dry.
--Lord Byron's Canto the First: Childe Harold's Good Night

2005-11-01T20:50:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Bon Jovi - Have A Nice Day

very often in our lives, we do not truly peruse every single moment.
it is because of our ignorance, we really do not see the beauty of life.
it takes a little effort, to believe in ourselves,
to recognize our potential and our voice within,
and consistently encourage ourselves to go beyond our boundaries.

i will not deny the fact that i was pretty down for the past two weeks,
but at times, as what suliana will tell me, listen to what my heart has to say,
and with love and thanks to my sis, Grace and bestest friend, Yong Xiang,
i learn how to find peace with myself and let go of my past.

i am willing to move on in my life with so much more confidence and conviction.
i know the academic year of 2006 will be indeed a challenging one, but i know,
with faith and haha, some intelligence, i can breeze through the year.
in life lies so much uncertainties and insurmountable challenges,
there is just no way you can choose to avoid them,
what i will do is to make the best out of the situation and deal with it.

as what Mr Tan said during General Paper,
"the only thing constant in life is changes", as paradoxical as it may seem to be.

changes are evil?

i beg to differ.

good night.

2005-10-19T01:56:00.000-07:00

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.

2005-10-03T02:41:00.000-07:00

2005-10-02T20:56:00.000-07:00

Last night it struck again. The circles spun in an asymmetrical endlessness, circumnavigating my inner fears and slowly, I became a shadow of the lifeless incongruence that I had been. My soul had died, and my thoughts and feelings dissipated in an endless dune of sand, each grain carrying with it an emotion that couldn’t be spoken, but with a language of its own. All I could do was feel unbearably sad. The air of silence was intolerable to an extent that it hurt. When I awoke out of my dream-like motion, thoughts of that sinking feeling enveloping my entire soul would pass in and out. A rush of emotions would overflow and I’d break the empty soundlessness with my gushing tears. I’d cry out loud but muffle out my sniffing in my pillow just in case anyone heard. I tried to sleep, and it didn’t matter that my naked skin rested on chilly bed sheets. The only think that was important was to brainwash myself from the matters which I couldn’t shy away from. Outside, waves of glimmering silhouettes passed by, like scenery through the window of a moving vehicle. Inside, my heart rang a melody, purging these silhouettes into matter of grey, breaking the raucous ill-reasoned frippery of being and lightness of self. The pitch-black darkness highlighted the seeping light and made it seem brighter. All I did was to try and forget. There are places where we have all been, things we have all done, some kind of agonies comprehensible, but last night, only heaven could tell that I was in misery…

2005-09-30T19:54:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Lifehouse - You and Me

This is a appreciation tribute to my General Paper teacher, Mr TCB.

a juxtaposition of memories...

January - March 2005
It all started when he stepped into the class in January 2005...class 05A1
I was chewing this bubblegum and yes, I wasnt doing so in discretion. This teacher did not bother to reprimand me but instead told me to eat in discretion. I was being mean and I was like "ER YAH". Just as you think he will probably ask you to get the hell out of the class, he said "wahh attitude sia". HAHA. Hilarious man...But I felt bad after that.

National Campaign Essay.
Too long of an introduction.
First person in MI who told me that i had proficent language.
dedicated teaching during lessons.
really sparked off my interest in GP.
Andrew Sullivan's essay on Compromising in Abortion.
felt as though Ive fallen in love with a subject...

April - September 2005
pleasantly surprised that he was my teacher again.
it was heartwarming and delightful that he recognised me and some other zerofiveaoners.
i was still in a daze since my life took a rude shock when I got into Millennia.
expectations set in.
sworn in as a general paper representative.
vowed to do a really good job as a gp rep to facilitate discussions and other matters.(hey i think i've done a fairly good job ok!)
in depth to the subject.
lessons got exciting. intriguing. challenging.
mid year results.
assignments and more assignments
and even more lessons.
consultations after consultations.
long AQs
much practices later, normal length. (6-7.5marks)
never once got bored. ever.
nights having fun in tcb blog.
fish and co. wheelock place with his students.
received AQ booklet. so talented sia
29th sept 05. last gp lesson before promos.
strangely emotional.

carol ann duffy's in mrs tilscher's class
you ran through the gates, impatient to be grown,
as the sky split open into a thunderstorm

30th sept 05.
gp promos.
highly anticipative and nervous.
felt better after talking to mr tcb.
a sense of growing up, no idea why.

that feverish july, the air tasted of electricity

science and technology.
crime and punishment.
social responsibilities vs corporations.
will i make it? time will tell.
tried my best.
took his advices.
worried of not doing him proud.
though i know at the end of the day, it's for myself and no one else.
grown up.
felt as though ive tried my best. i did.

i was changed.

it does not matter whether have you done well for your mid years or not. all it
matters is what are you exactly doing from now till the promos.

can do it.
really caaaannn...
thank you mr tan.

2005-09-30T18:35:00.000-07:00

When we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow you said you've got something
Deep inside of you
A wind chime voice sound, sway of your hips round rings true
Echo's deep inside of you
These secret garden beams changed my life so it seems
Fall breeze blows outside, i don't bring stride
My thoughts are warm, and they go deep inside of you
Oh yeah
And I never felt alone
Alright, alone...alone
Till I met you
Friends say I've changed
I don't listen cause I live to be
Deep inside of you
Slide of her dress, shouts in darkness
I'm so alive I'm
Deep inside of you
You said boy make girl feel good
But still...deep inside...STILL!
I've never felt alone
Till I met you
I'm alright on my own
Till I met you
And I'd know what to do if I just knew what's coming
I would change myself if I could
I'd walk with my own people if I could find them,
And I would say that I'm sorry to you,
I'm sorry to you, but I don't want to call you,
But then I want to call you cause I don't want to crush you,
But I feel like crushing you and it's true
I took for granted you were with me,
I breath by your looks and you look right through me
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
Right...oh, what's right?
Something's gone you withdraw and I'm not strong like before I was
Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you
And some great need in me, starts to bled
I've lost my self there's nothing left, it's all gone
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you

2005-09-30T18:34:00.000-07:00

2005-09-25T09:30:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Switchfoot - Dare You to Move

It's me against time.

who will prevail?

heh.

2005-09-11T21:55:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Swirl 360 - Okay

What a week it has been! I've learnt so much about myself, it has truly been such an amazing week to reinvent my ideals and thoughts. Oh well, at least I got myself to believe in myself and really hear myself talking.

Benjamin, you've been such a great friend to hang out with. Ive learnt so much from you and yes, I feel so certain of what I have been doing and I shall not and never ever look back.

Eh Weiwen, nice to know you. Contact me soon yes?

Suliana, my best friend in 05A3, you go gurl and I wish you the best in the coming promos. Distinctions? Up for grabs yea?

My dearest 05A3, remember. Pre-University Two 2006. Enough said. =)

Good Night.

2005-08-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

Plugged: A Teens - Dancing Queen

I feel so good now, maybe because I have finally get away from him. I see no point of dwelling over as what TS Eliot has said in Preludes, "the burnt out ends of smoky days". I dont wanna waste any more breath and time on someone who absolutely do not derserve my love and attention. I thought I saw something good in him, but I was very wrong. =)))

Anyways was talking about religion the other day and yes, this is a highly-subjective issue that requires careful thought-processing and balanced point of view. Whatever Ive said here is truly based on my own opinion, so DO NOT tag me and start hurling groundless accusations at me. Yes?

why i do not believe in religion

essentially, for me to believe in anything, there must be a logical basis for me to do so. in a nutshell, all religion is based on faith, which is belief without concrete evidence. if there were concrete, irrefutable (reasonably) evidence, there would be no talk about faith, because there would be little grounds for dispute. unfortunately, in my opinion there can be no logical proof for the existence (or non-existence for that matter) of some higher authority, and ergo i do not believe in it. of course, religious logicians will say that since both sides of the coin cannot be proved, believing in God isn't illogical. i give them that, however the burden of proof is always upon the advocate (id est you do not believe in something if there is no evidence for it). for instance you wont believe that a rock is a living thing unless you see evidence that suggests it is. anyhow, religious logicians will also accuse me of one fundamental assumption - that everything you believe in must have a logical basis, and they will say that human logic is flawed, and there is some higher authority that is beyond logic. while that might be possible, in my opinion human logic is ultimately the most reliable methodology by which we conduct an assessment of our behaviour and beliefs. hence, while i do concede that the underlying assumption throughout all logical refutations of God is that logic is reliable, i think that this is a reasonable and necessary assumption to make, if not one will be able to prove anything.

having said that, there have been many arguments in favour of the existence of God. of late, the arguments advocated, have, in my opinion, degenerated to mindless, intuitive ones. many modern arguments are based upon the vague feelings of 'loneliness', 'emptiness', and some form of 'divine inspiration', which, if one thinks about it, has little logical validity with regards to the objective existence of God (it all becomes a matter of perception, no longer an analysis). i guess we all have to blame rousseau for these nebulous emotional arguments. in any case, arguments based upon emotion and not logic are difficult to rebutt, simple because they have little validity in the first place. hence, i will focus upon the logical lines forwarded to support the existence of some higher being.

the first and most common would be the 'first cause' argument. in essence, it advocates the fact that since the universe exists, there must be a cause A, and there must be some cause B that induces cause A, and so on; until we come to something that is the cause for itself, and we call that being God. firstly, this does not give any indication of the nature of God. Even if He is the primal cause, it doesnt indicate that he is good, loving, perfect, or interested in our affairs. furtheremore, the there is a fundamental logical contradiction in this argument. by questioning the cause of the universe, there is the assumption that everything must have an external cause. however, the arrival at a being that is the cause of itself is in contradiction to the initial mantra. why can't the universe be the cause of itself? of course, one cannot say FOR SURE that the universe is, but neither can we say for sure that there is a Godlike being that is the cause of itself. therefore since we cannot assume existence of something that is in doubt, we take a stance of agnosticism.

Yes?

2005-08-21T22:54:00.000-07:00

Spin by Lifehouse

I'd rather I chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be than
Be alone and convinced that I know

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
Cause I know I'm not sure
about anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

Spinning turning watching burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking crawling climbing falling
All my life has found its meaning

You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

2005-08-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

Plugged: John Mayer - Your Body is a Wonderland

We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you

One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue

And if you want love
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder
(I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Something 'bout the way your hair
falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling
towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it

You want love?
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder
(I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Damn baby
You frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder
(I'll use my hands)
Your body is a wonderland
Your body Is a wonderland

2005-07-27T19:14:00.000-07:00

Today I had fun in school. Shiva came back to school after a dubious trip to Bangkok, Thailand and yes, it was indeed delightful to see her around with the rest of the zerofiveathree-ers. Heh. Once again, the provocation of General Paper lessons has got the better out of me, as I realised that there are just way many practices needed in me in order to achieve my aim of A2 for the upcoming promotional examinations. Then again, the indomitable will of my strength and mental tenacity will make sure I shall not be complacent and constantly rest on my laurels, but rather keep on working for excellence.

Higher Chinese was fantastic. I got A1 for both AO Chinese papers. Man, if only I could combine AO Chinese with Chinese A, I would probably wind up a high B or an A. Still, Im happy with what Im doing right now and yes, a note to self would be to complete my assignments as soon as possible lah. Geography lesson was pretty much used up for class chit-chatting and I guess it was alright for all of us to slack for this period since we were rather fast already, you see. It's funny how Miss Cheah gave her remarks on my report slip. BBB. Yes yes, it's an alliteration and I dont see any literary effect on me or anybody else for that matter. But hey, it's so sweet of her to comment on my abilities and character, and yes, big fish on a small pond? pros and cons? I personally beg to differ.

Oh yes, did I tell you I love my classmates in 05A3? I love my first three months class of 05A1 but then again, it's comforting to know that even though I've moved on, Im very much enjoying myself and perusing every single moment I have with these bunch of intellects and crappers. What Miss Cheah said was really true, what I have accomplished today in Millennia credits a large portion to my classmates in 05A3 lah, since they've always been so ever supportive and proving so much abeyance and syncope to my clusteration of stars.Zerofiveathree-ers, you guys have been truly amazing.

Arts performance in the hall today. Malisa and Adib rock lah. They went up to the stage after much cajoling on Adib's part and damn am I proud of that guy man. He totally embarassed himself on stage but eh dude, what's the benefit of it all? I was on my way home today after debate training and yes, a bunch of pre-u one and two girls was actually saying how cute Adib was. Like how gross and annoyingly-disgusting is that lah! Eh Adib, you must be giving that arabic smirk now right? Atta boy, yea? And Malisa, well done! Haha you totally impress me with your antics and I see you opening up slowly...but not too fast yea or you might scare me ah. Then again, you have so much linguistic potential in you, dont waste it man.

After which...
just as you thought...
it will be...yet another monotonous day...with nothing on after school...
zerofiveathree-ers straddling around the school compound...doing nothing...
BUT!

We has our ZEROFIVEATHREE AFTER MID YEAR EXAMS PARTY BASH!

It was one helluva rocking fun time spent with these precious pals of mine in class lah! The bash was held something like a pot luck, which reminds me of my drama club's pot luck bash in EVG, but hey this was so much different. Celebrating the bash with so many good friends and fun-loving people, I have absolutely NO regrets at all. Miss Cheah bought some really yummy chocolate fudge cake from NYDC and gosh, you should've tasted the cake, so creamy and soft! All of bought chips, drinks, cups etc. It was so much fun bonding together as ONE 05A3. Fareez and myself was hunting teachers down to get hold of a digital camera so we could capture these finest moments in Millennia into photographs. Thanks Mrs Choy and Mr Chris Lim, you guys have been great help yea? ANDDDDD the best part happened...after our class photo-taking session. WE... had...a...FOOD WAR! Let me give you a blow-by-blow account of what exactly happened and who should be held responsible for the entire suppression.

All of taking photos.
Adib started pulling Miss Cheah's hair.
I joined in by messing up her hair.
No idea why the girls got hyper.
Miss Cheah went insane.
The next thing I knew, she plunged this piece of pizza onto my face and uniform.
Everyone got excited.
Attacked me with ALL KINDS OF FOOD.
Miss Cheah was smart enough to attempt to leave.
But hah! The 05A3 spirit will never falter,
We got hold of her,
but she ran! Atta girl, MG girl!
And she realised that I was gonna hurl her food.
Miss Cheah went hysterical.
Ran to another classroom.
Started playing chicken-eagle game.
Everyone else closed the doors so she couldnt escape.
They started laughing and laughing and laughing,
I was running and and running and running,
She was escaping, escaping and screaming.
FINALLY. That fast girl, I placed the pizza on her face. HURRAY!

And then the rest started to dump me more food to my uniform and sabotaged one another. . . and I just realised at that point... I had debate training after the bash. OOPS. I was dirty, smelly and fat. Ok wait, no idea why did I just say that.

I had SO much fun! Man, it was fantastic class-bonding session. Thank you Miss Cheah for the initiation of party and the rest of you guys for participating actively in this event...and the best part was...everyone was present in school today. OMG!

Alright then.
I had loads of work to do.

Shall blog about my debate training soon.

2005-07-24T15:51:00.000-07:00

Plugged: NDP songs from 2000-2005

Okay I know you might be wondering what's with my sudden pick of songs. Haha, it's always the "time" of the year where I will be strangely-interested in NDP songs. Hey, it's not a bad thing right? At least Im like the patriotic one here. My favourite songs are definitely those sung by Stefanie Sun. She is just such a talented singer with a great personality and voice. She was from SAJC and NTU. Well apparently all the good singers graduate from SAJC. I have NO idea why, it seems like the "singing" culture is embedded in the Saints culture.

I just came back from the library. It was a productive mugging session since I told myself not to be distracted by absolutely ANYTHING at all. Saw quite a number of my juniors in there and a throng of NJCians mugging there. I think they were all J2s since their prelims is just three months away? Good luck guys, hopefully the prelims will be a rough gauge of your standard for your upcoming national examinations.

It's weird to see how my friends will be graduating from colleges this year and moving on to army next year. If I studied my Math hard enough and went on to the Express stream, I would've winded myself up in some college and doing the same thing as they are right now. But me and my wretched obstinance. Oh well, I guess there's just no point in dwelling over it, yea? Im happy right now in MI(ok not gonna be for long) and Im sure there will be so many exciting things in store for me in the coming years! OOH cant wait!

I saw Madeline! She got a freakin A for higher chinese. Okay, Im jealous. Here I am getting a stupid C and she just had to score so blardee well in her Chinese. That was how I felt just now when I bumped into her in the library with Kuan Wei, but then again, I realised that she's already in J2 and it's about time for her to start doing well in the subjects she's taking or else...time's running out and that might simply just spell trouble isnt it? I have two long years before the big ol' "A" and yes, Im sure I will have plenty of opportunites to work towards my A in higher chinese. It's about time to start borrowing Chinese novels from the school library!

Wong Ci! Good luck for today's School of Rock semi finals yea? I messaged you just now already and you told me you're not afraid so hey, I expect something good from you eh? ANDDD you owe us something right? YES? haha.

I just have to post this poem by Cyril Wong, a local poet in Singapore.

Minor Epiphany

Looking out
of the window at
infinite drops of rain.

Each one
exquisite and whole.
Perfectly shaped.

But they
hit the ground.
Every single one.

I shall post my analysis and commentary soon cuz I think this poem is just too short and intense...which reminds me of what else, people? HAIKUs!

this haiku is written by Basho.

heavy downpour.
even a monkey needs a raincoat.

wooooooot.

Okay, my birthday is just next Saturday! I will be 18 years old. I will BE sooo much older...and I WILL BE...

logging off now.

2005-07-21T20:05:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Lifehouse - Spin

Finally. Im actually updating! Haha...Ive been really busy with school work and yes, got back most of my papers already. Did relatively well, I guess. Im just disappointed with my Literature and General Paper grade since I knew I could've done way better if I werent so annoyingly-complacent. Still, it's only the beginning of the many examinations I will be taking over the years before the big "A". I shant rest on my laurels but continue to work harder and harder, achieving my target grades which Ive set for myself. =)

Today PE was fun. I went to the gym with the other HAF kids, and haha my rugby friend was teaching me how to use this machine which trains your arm muscles. I think I shall work out more often in the gym, what do you think?

Today was the commemoration of Racial Harmony Day and yes, I was sabotaged to get onto the stage to do some simple indian dance. It was indeed an eye-opener. I dragged Lana(much to the anticipation and joy by the audience) to the stage and started laughing and mocking at so many things man. I promised Hanafy, Fareez, Rachelena and Gowri that I will prepare some "Tang Yuan" soon. It's really really nice, oh man, I seriously love my Chinese culture.

Actually, I could vividly recall the days I advocated National Education back at my alma mater, Evegreen Secondary. I used to be this "country-potato" where everything was basically constant, which wasnt the truth of course. Being a NE ambassador opened up new frontiers to unexplored adventures and I had definitely learnt a lot about being involved in current affairs and the matters which affect the global scale. Today's Racial Harmony Day has triggered off my thoughts of immense contemplation. I realise that during my GP lessons, just as I thought I knew everything and anything about discrimination and prejudice, I was proven wrong by Chweebs. I've always thought that the main reason of raciam discrimination was the influences from others, but I realised that fear and inferiority has contributed so much to discrimination.

At the end of the day, we need to understand that we co-exist in this world for our own pursue of goals and aspirations. If we were to allow these racial barriers and stereotypical perceptions ruin our aim of moulding a world for all, a colour-blind society, it will indeed be such a pity. It is only through mutual understanding and tolerance to each other, and also having a mind of our own to form and shape our own opinions and judgements based on what we have experienced and thus analysed, that we will create a harmonious society...with the human milk of kindness.

Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT? heh.
Met my mom after school for dinner at Swensens! It was so delectable and sumptuous. Went to get my new pair of spectacles. I miss my brother. DAMN.

Anyways,
got to go mug.

2005-07-03T09:37:00.000-07:00

wow! two entries in a day!

You scored as Utilitarianism. Your life is guided by the principles of Utilitarianism: You seek the greatest good for the greatest number.

�The said truth is that it is the greatest happiness of the greatest number that is the measure of right and wrong.�

--Jeremy Bentham

�Whenever the general disposition of the people is such, that each individual regards those only of his interests which are selfish, and does not dwell on, or concern himself for, his share of the general interest, in such a state of things, good government is impossible.�

--John Stuart Mill

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Utilitarianism

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Strong Egoism

75%

Kantianism

70%

Existentialism

70%

Hedonism

70%

Justice (Fairness)

60%

Divine Command

55%

Apathy

20%

Nihilism

10%

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2005-07-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Hoobastank - The Reason

Wow it has been a long time since I heard that song mentioned above. I could vividly remember the days when I was doing my art prep work and whenever I switched on the radio, it would definitely be playing this song. It feels weird, really. I miss my Sec 5 art class, we have gone through thick and thin together, motivating each other to get out batik ironed out and perfect our preparatory work. It all paid off in this year's judgement day. More than half of us achieved distinctions and even the weaker ones got at least a B4 or better for their art. People often complain how monotonous a certain subject is, but I beg to differ. Having done my O Levels last year, I realised the importance of not just seeing the big picture of getting our desired grades but rather, we must comprehend the very fact that we should be looking at the process, learning the skills and honing out capabilities in applying these disciplines learnt in our daily lives. It is obvious, I've learnt how to do so.

Watched the Wimbledon Ladies Finals last night. Congratulations to Venus Williams of USA for fighting back to become the third-time champion in the land of Big Brother. Tonight's Men Finals, I reckon will be so much fun and nerve-wreckage. Roger Federer of Switzerland up against Andy Roddick of USA. Any bets, guys? Im rotting for Andy Roddick again but I know the world number one Roger will have a way higher chance to clinch the championships and he moves really gracefully on grass too. :)

Oh well, I'm on a mugging spree now. Gotta work really hard for the term exams and get my momentum going. I have my debate trainings to juggle as well. Damn, tournament is just next Saturday at Pioneer Junior College. Im up against HCJC and SRJC. Our debate coaches are really nice and talented? Matthew and Nabil. They may be horny at times, but hey, at least they get things done pretty well. Come on Team Millennia! No matter what happens, just keep talkin', cuz that's all it matters at the end of the day. :)))

05A3 will be a fantastic class if there arent morons and losers who perpetually irritate people out of their wits. I see NO reason why I should be part of their league. I will not, and I repeat, will not stoop myself so low to be so flirtatious, so immature, so full of themselves and at the end of the day, not doing well themselves. If time could go back to its very beginning, I will definitely choose not to be accquainted with them. It's sad to see how these people can be so ostentatious and retarded, pretending that they can just stay in class being gay and happy. How can everything be right with their presence? Do they not KNOW they have done SO many things to the people around them? Do they not SEE that people are actually talking bad about them? Do they not UNDERSTAND that something major and I mean, really, major is plotting against them? Whatever they are doing, seriously, it just goes to show that they are just trying too hard. They debase values and friendship so badly that I dont see any objections to annihilate, exterminate, eliminate and destroy their very presence in this class and maybe to exaggerate a little, in this world.

But for the rest of you sweeties in 05A3, you guys have been really cool. Keep it real and good luck for your term examinations! Anyone has their fair chance of getting to the top, so work for it! Alright? ;)

Okay, I feel like eating watermelon.

2005-06-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

Finally I'm blogging. I seriously think that Im turning into a full time mugger. What to do, term exams commence in just a whopping two weeks time. Debate schedule is out and yes, I will be jam-packed with trainings and more trainings. Im turning psychotic, really. Studied with Cheng En in the library yesterday again and yea, it was really productive. Saw Madeline and Kuan Wei and Madeline, dont you forget our movie trip next week yea? After we studied, both of us went to catch Batman Begins. It was fantastic, and i thought the effects and plot was just right. Nothing too exaggerative or far-fetche and just adequate amount of romancing in the movie. Guys, if you have the urge to watch a good movie, you might want to consider Batman Begins. I know you might think it's corny but hey, I am not a big "comic-characters-remake-movie" fan myself, still I enjoyed yesterday's movie thoroughly. ;)

I was whining to Vitz last night that I havent start my revision for higher Chinese. DIE. I will have to slot in an additional timeslot for CL A today then. I cant afford to slack my ass off since it's an A level subject and considering the very fact that we are supposed to be better than the AO shittos so yea, I will not allow myself to falter. Talked to Joette recently, it was alright since she's still the same ol' Joette, really heartening. 05A1 PAE is going to have a stayover this Saturday! WOOHOO. I will see if I can make it though since I gotta attend my CL A steamboat session and a movie trip with Shiva. ARGH. SO SO SO busy!!!

Read Time magazines in the library yesterday. I was profoundly-touched by the cover story of the aftermath of the Tsunami which shook the entire world about half a year ago. It was horribly catastrophic and it was indeed a time not for finger-pointing but rater, some soul-searching. Is it a way of god to punish us dwellings in this universe? Or realistically speaking, is it an indirect way to force conflicting countries to bury their geo-political hatchets and cooperate to solve the imminent crisis? I was even more touched to see Tsunami survivors picking themselves up and not let the hurdle control their destiny. Look at us, we often whine and take everything around us for granted but look beyond yourself, you see people struggling every single day in all aspects of life but yet never did they complain or elude themselves in pessimism or melancholy. Rather, they tell themselves life has to go on and they can make a difference to everyone's lives as well.

Miss Rachel Cheah, my annoyingly-competent Geography teacher was telling us about this project whereby Tsunami survivors will hold each others' hands and take a small, gradual step towards the direction of the sea. This is aimed to conquer their fear of the sea, the unpredicatble power of Mother Nature. I think this project is named "Making Waves". I am elated to see how our fellow Millennians as well as students from other schools and organisations have come together this holiday to embark on community involvement projects to Tsunami-affected areas. Hanafy was showing Victoria and myself the video he took in Thailand and the devestation(though mostly cleared by now) was still there, the scars was vivid. I was delighted also to see how he and his other compatriots had created so much joy and loving in the schools and orphanages. This is the love of humanity, this is simply, the agenda of our modern era, ladies and gentlemen!

Today will be yet another day of brainwork. Heh.

Im replying my tags and haha, some of which were REALLY passe.
Freddy: Im always studying in the cafe or 2nd level! You? ;)

Bridget: Enjoyed OBS? Im sure you did, and you looked really nice in tanned skin and in the Millennian uniform! Way to go gurl! And as for me leaving for cj, oh well, time will tell.

Andrea: haha you cant find anything about me geographical. Maybe a SAINT? aw.

Samantha/Yee Kien: I know that angry entry was horrible but what to do? Assholes in my life, and having that debater spirit in me, I have to let it all out, albeit in a mean way lah. haha.

Shariza: Victorians VS Millennians. I tell you, MI geography is way better than vj's AND OF COURSE the part about primary one bozo wasnt true lah! Halfdeaf lah you. :X

Victoria: AHHH, miss skyline! Eh, remember our Friday coffebean club! HAHA.

Kuan Wei: I wanna read Angels and Demons too but I hate to spend money on Brown's books. I am planning to buy Arabian Nights though. :( Wanna watch Initial D?

Shawn: HEY Fairsian! HAHA. Hope Innova is fun for you too!

Minyi: Ahh...yet another ex-Fairsian. I will TAG YOU later.

Arthur: Hey dude! I miss you too lah! But called you the other night so hey, we're even yea? Hopefully we can meet up real soon for dinner?

Ain(whoever's sister): Hey there! How are you? Must study hard yea? I dont know those people...are they in pre-university one? :)

Alton: Hello Alton! Haha why wish me all the best in my future? You're going somewhere? Anyways you take care yea?

Shakirrah: Hey gurl!!! I miss the first three months debaters lah!!! Mug hard for your terms ok?

Cheng En: ...

YAY.

2005-06-17T21:22:00.000-07:00

Name: Cha Yong Sing Ignatious
Gender: Male
Straight/Gay/Bi: Hmm. HAHA. Straight.
Screennames: Ignatious, Egopunk, Egobitch
Birthdate: 30th July
Age you act: I act? I never acted.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty
Your family: Dad, Mom and an annoying elder brother.
Pets: my stuffed duck.
Addictions: punk rock, debating, humanities, espn rugby(oh yea).
Languages spoken: English, Mandarin?

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? I try to be.
Do you have any secrets? What if that information is a secret?
Do you like your handwriting? You sure bet.
Do you have any bad habits? Erm. I think it's easier to list my good habits.
Can you sing? Let's just say my singing shall only be confined to a bathroom.
Do you think you are good looking? Ask my broken mirror.
Are you confident? rhetoric. but oh well, yea.

Do You...

Read the newspaper? duhh.
Pray? Yes.
Go to church? sometimes.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: If they're hot, why not?
Talk to people even though you hate them? It's a sad world, baby!

Would or Have You Ever

Hurt yourself? of course not!
Been out of the country? Yeah. Dosen't take much to.
Been in love? Of course.
Beaten someone up? Yeah, a couple of days ago. There was this primary one girl who was giving me strange looks, so i decided to beat her up. It was a fairly even match, but i emerged victorious in the end.
Gotten beaten up? Yeah, just yesterday. that same primary one girl brought a classmate. ouch!
Been picked on? Yeah, by that primary one girl's younger sister. They all hate me.......
Pulled an all nighter? when im in an insanely-energetic mood to mug overnight.
If so, what is your record? One day only.
Gone one day without food? i see absolutely no joy in that.
Had a dream that came true? of course.
Had a dream that kept coming back? cant remember.

Beliefs

Life on other planets? Doubt it, although it's impossible to prove the non-existance of something.
Miracles: why not?
Magic: Only when it's gonna help me. Hear that, fairy? I ain't gonna clap my hands for u till u gimmie a set of decent abs.
Luck: All the time.
Yin and yang (that good can't exist w/o bad): debatable.
Witches: Haha. Can't say or she'll hex me.
Possible to remain faithful forever: as much as i think its possible...

Friends

Who is your best friend: many lah.
Who's the one person that knows most about you? myself?
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? smile and the world will fucking smile at you back.
Newest? bejamin and his rj friends.
Shyest? that hwa chong guy from kap.
Smartest? benjamin lah.
Who do you fight most with? HAHA shiva!
Who's the nicest? ehhh everyone.

Right This Moment

What are you wearing right now? berms and tennis jersey.
Body part you're touching right now? hehehe.
What book are you reading? charlie and the chocolate factory by roald dahl. DONT laugh.

heh.

2005-06-09T07:04:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Lifehouse - Hanging by a Moment

I realised the previous entry of mine has intrigued many people in my life and heh, all I can say is Im less-pissed now and Im taking an anger management course to manage my life and anger. Of course that isnt true.

I had so much fun yesterday. Went to meet the GPpers in my class. Victoria, Hanafy, Rob, Lana and myself. I met Rob earlier to get to the Borders. We saw a number of really cool books. I thought of getting the Da Vinci Code but Victoria, being so every analytical and annoying, told me not to. Oh well, she'd better borrow me that book soon and HEY VIC, onetreehill series??? Heh. Met up with the rest of the GPpers and headed out for lunch. We ate at Breeks! I ordered Baked Pasta and it was satisfactorily delectable. I probably prefer Pasta Mania's though. Lana and I went to get Aunt Anne's pretzels after lunch. I love pretzels lah. We stayed in Breeks to discuss our project and allocated duties. I simply love my group lah, intellectual bunch of Millennians who can think and act fast. I like.

We later went around town to shop and hang out. Rob and I went to this rugby store in Heerens. Saw this striped jersey and it's freakin expensive. I really like the design and colour of the apparel but then again, maybe it's not the right time to get that, yes? After much contemplation, I finally let go of that jersey and walked out to HMV. It's funny how people see HMV as a place to gauge one's personality and outlook in life. I see my classmates going to different departments of music in HMV.

Victoria, myself and Lana - Rock
Hanafy - Jazz and Classical (much to Lana and my dismay)
Fareez - Hip Hop and Dance

It's funny that whenever we get to a different genre of music, we will raise our suspicious eyebrows and demonstrate the most caustic remarks ever on the music. Haha. I saw The Used album! I didnt get it since I can always be an asshole and download the album and thereby upload the tracks to my Zen right? I felt guilty lah, like Im not supporting the band and true spirit of the music industry of annihilating piracy.
W
e went to Cineleisure after that and damn, we wanted to catch Mr and Mrs Smith but the earliest timeslot was full and I couldnt make it to the next one. I had an appointment in the evening with my first three months friends.

Went to Kinokuniya and again, saw really fascinating books especially in the Political Science area. Books questioning the politics in the world, doubting the faiths of various prominent leaders and attempting the beat the systems. These books may seen as taboo to some people but to me, these books are written with a purpose, a medium to propagate information and choices to the masses, telling them that there are more to what they are seeing right now. Fantastic, really.

Hugged my beloved OC and said goodbyes to the rest.

JURONG POINT with the first three months people. Met up for dinner and chillin out with Yunzhi, Joyce and Sheena. Wong Ci was supposed to join us but he was shagged...so he claimed. Haha. Went to Siam Kitchen for dinner but I didnt order anything since I was kinda full after so much food intake since morning. I had so much fun laughing and crapping with these cute people lah. Went to walk around after that and later settled down at Coffee Bean for some confectionery delights, sponsored by Yours Truly. We took photos and once again, made videos! Laughed like crazy lah.

These people are so special to me. We may not see each other every single day or week, but they give me a reason to trust them, to love them and to respect them in so many ways that it's hard to put it into mere words and sentences. Anyways, hope we can meet up for lunch or dinner soon yes? And Hi Ian! Miss that guy too lah, so glad he came to talk to me online. Hope you're having fun with the girls in yj yes? That hot arse.

There's Jue Dui Superstar tonight. Im so gonna watch it, but wait, there's Shakespeare project meeting later in town.

Never mind.

2005-06-06T00:03:00.000-07:00

The facade of this very person. My, how astounding, shocking, astonishing, terrifying, mortiying, horrifying, terrorizing and the list goes on...

It's amazing to see how a nice person can evolve to a complete asshole. I had it enough. Apparently there are just SO many assholes in life that it just comes down to which one is more assholic than the other.

Seriously, do you think you are ALL mature and ALL nice andddd ALL hilarious? HEY FUCKER, guess what? You're so NOT. Dont even bother thinking that you are ALL benign and friendly. YOU are just SO hard to comprehend, so hard to understand. It isnt an obligation to know you, understand you, to peruse you. BUT, just my wretched luck to be in the same class with you. AND i SO hope to leave MI for cj next year. I dont wanna SEE YOUR stupid, plastic and oily face.

You think Im just an ostentatious, pretentious and a bootlicker huh? WELL guess what? I DONT bloody care. You can SAY anything you want, but at the end of the day, I know who I am the best. I know at least I am not a complete asshole and a REALLY horny one. If you think you're SO well-liked, HA!!! Think AGAIN, stupid moron! You are NOT. I dont really care about your existence. YOU CAN ROT IN HEAVEN WITH BONZI BUDDY WHEN HE POPS UP IN THOSE ANNOYING WINDOWS. GO HUMP HIM! GO. OH WAIT THAT PURPLE SHIT WILL PROBABLY SLIDE OFF YOU SINCE YOU'RE SO GODDAMN OILY AND DISGUSTING.

You were NEVER witty. JUST touchy. YOU WERE never FUNNY. just annoying. And please, if you're think you're SOOOOOOO smart! HMM. Wanna think again as well? Menancing threats are approaching you in fury and glorious anger. Be careful, fucker. BE CAREUFL.

I dont want to hate you...and I never did. BUT...dont force me k?
DONT.

I've offended people?
HEY MOTHERFUCKER, LOOK AT THAT STUPID MIRROR FIRST K?

It's amazing how he is comparable to a Victorian opera play.

Unpredictable.

To put it crudely by the contemptuous moniker, you're nothing but the weakest link.

AND WHAT GOES AROUND...comes around, baby.

2005-06-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

Plugging: The Libertines - What Became of the Likely Lads

Nothing really fascinating happened yesterday, I guess. I spent half of my day at the Woodlands Regional Library. I realised that I prefer to mug alone since Im able to concentrate more without any distractions. But then again, it's beneficial to study in a group or pair since we can motivate each other to surpass one another and even ask questions. Whatever it is, oh well, Im heading back to the library today.

It's kinda cool to study in the library. I can study at home since I have ALL the comfort and works but, I will tend to be drawn towards the computer and TV! I gottta get myself out of the crib and start hitting the books. Mids is just next month and Im pretty nervous since it's a major examination in Millennia and accounts part of my promos. But will I be taking my promos? I doubt so. Dont ask why.

Debate selections is coming too. TH would use affirmative actions to compensate historical injustices. Im in the opposition, speaking third. Kinda cool motion, I suppose. JCDCs is just on next month. Gotta recoup our losses in the nationals, I swear. Not gonna let those AC arses or VJ gays ruin our chances to advance in the prestigious JCDCs. GRR. A few days after my class won the Pre-U One Debates, i was contemplating upon myself. Not my personality but the choice ive made so far in my life. I asked myself, why do I choose debating over drama? Am I afterall, that inclined and capable in speaking? Rhetoric questions, but I know I find the thrill and satisfaction in debating that I can never find in drama. Maybe hardcore drama mamas and papas will beg to differ with me, but I know debating is an art of expression of issues which concern everyone's lives, it gives you a style which is essential and crucial in my POSSIBLE career prospects of being a lawyer and it feels REALLY good to win a debate and emerging as a best speaker.

Of course, I dont aim to be a best speaker for all of my debates. I just want my team to win.

Actually...
to quote 05A3's favourite line...
winning isnt everything,
because it is the only thing.

How so very true, ladies and gentlemen.

2005-06-02T10:02:00.000-07:00

Plugging: The Used - All That I've Got, Take It Away

School holidays have already started. Actually, I wouldnt even call it holidays, considering the number of times I have to make my way down back to Millennia for extra classes and Pioneer JC for debate trainings. There are projects and revision to be completed as well before school starts in a few weeks time. Today was supposed to meet up for Chinese A project but postponed it since I wasnt in the mood to meet up for project. Will meet up within this week I hope! I love my CL A peeps, simply the most talented and friendly bunch of people Ive ever seen.

Ive started my revision and it is going smoothly I guess. It felt really different from last year, you know. Last June was pretty much relaxation since my Chinese O Levels was over and you just want to escape from books. This June is well, different. Im having my mid years next month and it's a study month during the holidays. Whatever happened to leisure and play time? Whatever happened to reduction of stress level in Singapore and thus creating a much efficient and productive society?

Victoria and I recently went to Suntec City to chill. We walked to Millenia Walk(hint of pun, I know) and boy, we had so much fun there. We were attracted to this fantastic shop known as The Candy Empire. Yes yes, it was downright fabulous. The array of confectionery, sweets, chocolates and chips. My, if ONLY we have total possession of that shop, I SWEAR we will be SO freakin obese lah. I bought 100g? of chocolate candies and treated Victoria to this box of Skittles Gum? Worth the money, really.

We walked to the British India? Man, I love the stuffs there. The furniture, decorations and CUSHIONS are fantastic. It's pretty zen, in fact. I adore the ZEN culture and partly because of my ZEN touch. Okay fine, not funny. Anyhow, we were just sitting down, crapping and laughing and later we realised we were sitting on this wooden, middle-eastern bench which costed about 1600++ dollars? Haha, what if we've farted on it? HAHA.

Literature Paper One was fantastic yesterday. Mrs Meya completed Act One with us and I am seriously enjoying the play more. I dont know, I seem the prefer the Shakespearean language than the Sheridan language. Victoria and Shiva agreed with me too. I guess the more obscure something is, the more curious we'll get? Yes? No? Ok whatever. Oh to those who've missed the lesson, since Mrs Cow herself said that she will nto go through again, do look for me to help you explain the stuffs lah. We have bright minds like Victoria around too? HAHA. She's so GONNA kill me.

I went to Millennia Institute(Bartley campus) a few days ago. Yeaa I had SO MUCH fun there. No really, I love the book given by the author but, with all due respect, the talk was terribly sub-standard. Half the time, the irritating AO Chinese Bartley shittos was laughing and not taking the talk seriously and I dare say, the four Toh Tuck CL A students was really taking the talk to our hearts, not to our arses. The Bartley teacher called me yesterday to thank us for attending the talk and was praising us for the WHOLE ten minutes saying that we are SO downright intelligent, disciplined and mature, and that she wanted to teach us so badly. Thanks ah. Heh.

Oh my god. Went out with Lana and Rob yesterday lah! My FAVOURITE clique in Millennia. THE OC clique. Lana, Victoria, Rob and myself went out to Jurong Point for Madagascar! Haha. We were like lamenting away whyyyyy were we watching this retarded show. But hey, it wasnt that bad afterall. I kinda enjoyed the mellow sweetness of the "plot!plot!plot!". We later went to chill out at the Swensens. Man, I seriously LOVE the OC lah. They make my world go rounder and rounder. Hmm...actually the earth isnt round. It's ovoid in shape. This is because the earth, also technically known as Oblate Ellipsoid has its poles at the both ends of the world flattened, which is due to the presence of centrifugal force. HAHA.

Ive met Arifah!, Felicia, Liang Teck and Annabel recently when I was travelling home from school. It's nice to see my poly friends and juniors. They seemed to be having fun, I guess. And Weili, no matter where you are, Im sure you will do SO well and I wish you all the best okay? If TP Applied Food Sciences is the one, then so it is! Alright? Cheerios.

Alright I got to get my arse down to the library.

Bye!

2005-05-25T17:05:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Blink 182 - I Miss You

What an incredible day. 05A3 has emerged as the Pre-University One Inter Class Debating Championships WINNER. We overcame classes from the arts, commerce and science and finally, we are the CHAMPIONS. Guess who's the Best Speaker for the entire tournament? HMM. WHO? I am really ecstatic and seriously it's obvious that the euphoria in me will only fade away in days to come. I just want to say a BIG thank you to Bobbie and Shiva for being such nice debaters and you guys really CAN debate. Of course, a BIGGGGGGG shout out to my beloved class 05A3! Thanks guys! I am SO honoured to be in 05A3, seriously. The class which everything goes. HEH. You guys sticked by us in every single rounds of debate. Man! That really rock. Next year! Pre-University Two debates! We are SURE to defend out title yes?

I am having so much fun in Millennia. Loving my class even more and having my favourite CLIQUE ever. HAHA. The OC. Lana and Rob rock lah. I love them to the Moho Boundary lah! Dont worry guys, we will study together during the holidays and hang out with afy and amirul ok? Haha. Yes yes, I have two study groups. The 05A3 group and CL A group.

Let me be nice to mention their names on my sacred blog:

05A3 Study Group
- Lana
- Rob
- Bridget
- Victoria
- Adib
- Samantha

CL A Study Group
- Christine
- Shin Ling
- my mei mei, Kaiwei!

We will mug.
OK CHANT WITH ME
WE WILL MUG! WE WILL MUG! WE WILL MUG!

Anyways, I have General Paper common test tomorrow. Shall prepare for it after my dinner.

I dont wanna blog.

Im tired.
Lethargic
Four GP essays due.
1 Lit essay due.
1 CL A article due.

Okay.
SHALL focus now.
Debating season's over for NOW...that is

The OC rocks.

Oh Oh, to be political, I support Carrie tonight.

andddd my entry is so mutated and disintegrated.

hmm...question. DO I CARE?

Terminated.

2005-05-19T17:40:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Fountains of Wayne - Stacy's Mom

To blog, or not to blog? (haha)
Put in a less dramatic and reductionist manner:
Why do I write? All these idle mumblings on this blog? All these words splattered across the screen?

I think I write to sort out what I have to say. Of course there is the element of practice here, I want to finally give form to those nebulous things that drift around in my head, so that I can write what I feel better. However, sometimes one finds that in writing, one sheds new light on the subject. When I write I tend to self-console, or so I've noticed. Like the bright tendrils that blur the exact darkness. I start out with despair, and then take the subject, twist it around, and turn it into an eulogy of sorts. Whether I use the assurance of possibilities, or the comforting struggle for glory, I've always tried not to be depressing here.

There is also the fact that no one wants to listen, so I write. This is my little act of rebellion, in a way. After all, you can slip things into your writing that you'd never say, nor would anyone want to hear, in real life. My little castle in the clouds is here. The projection of what-ifs and thought-up realities. You see this in the cryptic posts, the romantic dreams, and the occasional lamentations.

Katharsis is another issue as well, I suppose. Where else can I write something and have the whole world, familiar and unacquainted eyes alike, look at what I have to say and react in a way influenced by me? In the way katharsis is achieved through shouting and brutal arguments, it is achieved here as well. Katharsis, is after all, somewhat like an announcement. Screaming at the world does wonders for the soul, you see it in all the sentimental chinese serial dramas.

And, written in order of importance, the last consideration when I write is your entertainment. This used to be much higher up actually, around rebellion and air-castle-building in the order of priorities. Perhaps this is reflective of my gradual loss of faith in others. Or perhaps I have just become a boring old geezer by now.

Perhaps the evolution of word-processing has had profound effects on writing. When you can go back and change what you want to write so easily, it is only natural that what you write takes on a more considerate, all-encompassing and empathetic form. To the open-minded that is disastrous, their brains will fall out, they will end up saying nothing but lamenting emptiness, the most all-encompassing concept the human mind is capable of. In a sense, perhaps the typewriter allowed us to capture some elusive form of glorious ideal in its caging permanence and inalterability. I look back at some of the things I said to inspire myself and I find them riddled with holes. But of course, sometimes I abandon the rational, this is just another of those instances. Haha, nevertheless, I'll try.

The June holidays is approaching the Millennians in full stride now. Just another week and YAY. I can finally rest after months of mugging and getting involved in school activities. PU1 Debate Finals is happening next Wednesday and yes, we're up against a Science class and I dont know if this is a boon or bane. No matter what, we are going to work very hard and fight till the very end. 05A3 debaters! Show absolutely NO mercy on that day, okay? Demolish their case and rip them apart!!!

Assignments have been pouring in like rapid surges of water and seriously, it's rather annoying at times when you are so lethargic but you still have to wake up early in the morning to complete your assignments. Being such a lousy student, I do still have outstanding assignments. I shall complete all of them later. I am finally waking up during Geography class. Dont get me wrong, I do not sleep during lessons but I was always in a "screensaver" mode and Miss R Cheah got to nag at me to ask me pay attention. It really had irritated the hell out of me but I realise coming to Millennia does not mean I can slack. I have to work extra harder and yeaa, who knows what the future holds? Like Yale Law? =)

I shall attempt to study tonight. I think I will mug GP and Geography. GP Mids is commencing next Thursday and it's the exact same day of my EVG Honours Day 2005. I apologise to my secondary school for not being able to attend the so-called prestigious function. Man. It will be my last time receiving my academic awards in EVG lah. Ive been receiving academic awards for the very first time EVG had theirs. It's alright I guess since my aim is to receive academic awards in I-Day.(Provided if I stay on in Millennia of course). It's not difficult to receive an academic award, I guess. It takes just hard work and discipline to stop procrastinating and start doing your assignments religiously.

I am enjoying 05A3, really. Really diverse class with people from all walks of life. But still, we bond well together and we have SO MUCH fun hanging out lah! I will not trade any other class for 05A3 man. Never.

Happy Belated Birthday, Yunzhi. (I've wished you on that day already k!) I will meet up with you some time during the holidays with a few of us for a get-together aight? AIGHT.I miss you guys so much lah. First-three months was the time of my life, but then again, I am having fun with my own class now. I dont know, I guess people do change and so will my feelings. =)

Alright got to go.

2005-05-13T04:18:00.000-07:00

Plugging: Fountains of Wayne - Stacy's Mom

Like how long have I not blogged here. I've been so busy with debate trainings and yes, Im so darn tired lah! 05A3 beat 05A1 in the Pre-University One Inter-Class Debating Championships(Semi-Finals) and yes, to satisfy my big ego, no prize to guess who was the best speaker. Okay anyways, I totally love 05A3 lah! As I know them better, I seriously believe that my impression of them can change for the better. My latest clique(i know, i know, yet another one) - Rob(Fareez), Lana(Suliana) and myself! We are the Americans of 05A3 and haha it was so funny lah. We will like SLANG for the whole day and we can do crazy stuffs like walking past 05C1, 05A5 and 05A4 and SLANG real loudly so they can give us their attention. Took many photos with my classmates today too, shall upload them soon.

Since trainings are temporarily-over, Im back to the mugging mode. I will start planning my revision schedule. My GP Mids is coming soon and yes, my CL A test is next week too. Man! It's hectic. I have Literature tutorials to complete and Geography revision to do. ANDDDDD my GP articles to outline. Sometimes I wonder, is it possible to give me another 24 hours in a day? I can do so much more with that. Really.

Went back to EVG with my juniors, Yee Kien and Weili today. We were supposed to meet Miss Rebecca Lee for Fish N Chips. She treated us to chips and we then went to the staffroom and rotted with her. Man the Sec 4s and 5s did so badly for their geography lah. So is it because the concepts are inaccessible to their ability or rather, too lazy to make an attempt to comprehend the facts? I dont know.

Went home and chatted with my CL A friend, Christine. She cried in school today lah. But then again, I dont blame her cuz I can totally sympathise her. Hey pal, you know we CL A students will always be there for you 24/7 right? I then slept from erm 845pm - 1230am? HAHA. Such a weird timing lah. I then stayed up to do my Geography tutorial and mugged some concepts.

OK i am still up at such an unearthly hour. Shall study somemore.

MI Rugby: GO FOR THE PLATES!!!

2005-05-02T10:01:00.000-07:00

I am getting serious and boring, judging from my recent entries.
The ability to make light of any situation is very important.
I'm not funny anymore. Sigh. Ah well maybe this is just a phase in the constant flux of personality.

I feel childishly petulant today.

2005-05-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

Plugging: some noisy malay song the neighbour is blasting.

Went to the doctor just now. Am still having stomach wind and gastric problems. Annoying, really. Never mind, shall go take my medicine later! Millennia lost to Anglo-Chinese 77-00. I know I know, we got thrashed real bad but hey, at least we've made our marks in this tournament by thrashing Hwa Chong and Yishun JC. So it's kinda a consolation? Inter-class debates Semi Finals is on next week, I presume? We still dont know whether are we in the proposition or opposition. The worse part is my ACJCs motion is out next week too. It's the debating season la. I really gotta get myself really prepared and drink loads of water!

Studied with Cheng En in the library yesterday. I mugged Geography. Not too bad, almost completed one unit. But then again, I was slacking in the morning and afternoon just now so I shall start mugging again after dinner. I have CL A assignments, GP essay and Literature materials to read up. SO dont tell me Im so free and I have absolutely nothing to do cuz the next thing you know is my middle finger pointing towards your fucked-up face.

05A1 meeting tomorrow! WOOHOO. That excites me big time. It has been quite some time since I saw the peeps la. JOETTE. IAN. DINAH. JOYCE. YUNZHI. SHEENA. WONG CI. Miss them like mad man.I do hope we can like go have lunch or dinner tomorrow and start laughing and chatting once again!

Oh Oh, I was at the clinic just now and this auntie was talking to me about how going to a top-notch college is not a good thing afterall. Her son was in JJC and he managed to obtain straight As in his A Levels. Right now, he is in NTU's Mechanical Engineering and is a commando in the SAF. Whoa. That's quite an achievement eh? I seriously dont aim or even forsee myself to be in commando or SISPEC cuz all I want to do is to get the NS done and over with so I can move on to NUS successfully. Before entering NS, like duhh I gotta lose a lot of weight. I've heard of horrifying stories of people suffering like dogs and buffaloes in the trainings. Heh. Oh well, right now I guess my main aim is the A levels. So shant think about NS for now.

yay! im about to complete fold mountains! HAHA. Ok no idea why did I type that.

EVG Drama: dont be disheartened with the COP. i know it's tough to compete in the drama sector in the SYF but then again, Im sure you guys have done your best so no regrets okay? Experience counts. NOT fame.

Alright got to log off!

AND TO YOU.
You are definitely one surprising case of people changing from a swan to a moron. Disgusting. Despicable. Demonic.

Get away from me, loser.

OUT!

2005-04-24T14:37:00.000-07:00

Plugging: The Used - All That I've Got

It has been a long time since Ive updated this weblog of mine yea? Anyways, been really busy with school. The A Levels curriculum is slowly seeping into me and yes I guess all of us know that it will not be a smooth-sailing journey. But it's alright, I am very sure Im up to the challenge, not gonna falter.

Went for the debate selections and yes people, I got selected alongside with my another team mate, Nadirah. Three other Bartley kids got selected lah, and Im not exactly excited at that prospect since the last impression I got from the Bartley debaters, it was reaaallly bad. Never mind, I do think they deserve another chance right? I wouldnt want to judge them based on how Ive last seen them cuz that wouldnt be far right?

The ACJC Intercol commence on the 2nd week of May. I KNOW. It's so friggin near my GP common test. The motion of my intercol debates will be out on the 4th of May. I seriously PRAY that there will not be any economics-based motion e.g. This House believes in the opening up of China. Man that motion was horrible and because of that, we were rather weak in our content and didnt march on to the semis in the NYJC Debates. Oh well. I will get my revenge in the ACJCs.

WOOHOO. MI RUGGERS beat YJC. We seriously rock lah. Well done boys! The next - ACJC. Man, I wouldnt place high hopes on the match but I hope that we will play till the very end and not let AC kick our asses too hard. SO COME ON BOYS. LET'S KICK AC'S butts!!! Am seriously proud of MI's rugby team.

Went out with Dinah, Ian and Joette two days ago for a dinner in town. We ate at Jade Crystal and I ordered my favourite Spring Onion La Mian. tasty! We then went to walk around since Ian needed to get his shoes and I wanted to scout for boots. I saw this really really nice Nike sneakers lah! But it's 120 bucks? GRR. Shall get it when Im loaded again. All of us then decided to sit around at one of our fave hangouts. - DFS. We sat and talked and took photos. Shall get those photos from Ah Ette soon. I took a video of them singing to this really old and melodramatic song lah. So goddamn hilarious. Later Dinah gotta go and I wanted to follow her home but yea, Joette and Ian was around so I stayed with them till 1030++? I had so much fun guys, thanks! We shall do it again with the rest of the 05A1 peeps next week? YES? YES.

I dont know why but Ive been waking up early almost every single day. Okay, for school days I will obviously wake up at 5am - 530am lah but even during weekends of public holidays, most of the time I will wake up at 630-7am. Weird eh? It's like Im biologically-programmed to wake up super early in the morning. But it's good though, like this morning I woke up early to do my assignments...till now. GROAN. It's raining now lah, you just gotta hate the weather. One minute it's blazing hot and at another, it's freezing cold. No wonder billions of Singaporeans are falling sick daily. DRINK MORE WATER...man.

So sad lah Caroline, Shalani and Eva has withdrawn from MI and went to NP, SIM and La Salle respectively. Huiting is leaving for TP soon too. Everybody is leaving 05A3. It's kinda sad cuz for the past two months or so, we've forged close friendships and it's a pity that they have to go now. Never mind, as long as they are happy, it doesnt matter to 05A3.

oh wait.
zerofiveaoners are better.

HEH.

2005-04-19T05:55:00.000-07:00

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2005-04-12T04:22:00.000-07:00

Lifehouse - Everything

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Seriously, this song is so moving.

2005-04-09T14:55:00.000-07:00

Just went to have my hair cut! I like to keep my hair short and I know my first three months clique absolutely hates it. I have no idea why since they think I look better with my hair long and spiky. I think a hair cut may seem very trivial to some people but to me it represents yet another form of expression. It's like a shoutout to the masses that you're going for a certain kind of look and having a different kind of attitude. It's interesting to investigate young people really. You NEVER know what they're thinking. ;)

Had rugby training yesterday. TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH. I tell ya, you can DIE, literally just training under the hot sun. It's alright though, I am looking forward to MORE trainings and I heard from Fareez that there's a rugby camp next week. Oh man, I bet it's gonna be HELL. Do I need to psyche myself that it will be a learning camp? I dont know.

Oh yes, I am SO happy today, not because there's something interesting going on right now but yesterday I went to town for a dinner date with my FIRST THREE MONTHS FRIENDS!!! 05A1 PAE! When I saw Joyce, Joette, YunZhi and Wong Ci in the foodcourt waiting for the rest, I was like SO excited and making a very very very happy expression? Haha, I just couldnt contain myself. We took out our HANDBOOKS and started to compare. I think Millennia's handbook ROCKS. We were busy catching up with each other's lives and Im glad and blessed to see all of us so healthy and happy. That's the most important thing right? We took like SO MANY photos and I think I was laughing throughout the entire evening. Everyone looked so different in their uniforms. NOT IN A BAD WAY duhh, but in a good way.

It's so hard to say goodbye when the night had to come to an end. Everyone said their goodbyes and promised to meet each other really soon. I felt like crying, really. I love these people so much cuz they are just so nice. NICE is an overated word to use, but it's definitely a word to summarise all the goodness in them. I do hope we can meet up again cuz our bond can then br strengthened. But then again, absence makes the heart grown more fonder and Im sure even if the day we meet will not be anytime THAT soon, we will still be anticipating the day we meet...again.

Thanks guys. *sniff*. Heh.

I gotta mug today.

and oh oh, HI MR TAN CB! He's my General Paper teacher in Millennia Institute. A SHOUT OUT TO YOU!!!

Have a nice day people.

2005-04-03T06:48:00.000-07:00

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

I woke up at such an unearthly hour of the morning. Never mind, it's nice to spill out my thoughts and rambles with a clear mind anyways, eh? Haha. Yesterday, I went out with my juniors to mug at the Civics Centre. It was alright, still going slow for my geography and seriously I have LOADS to cover lah! We then decided to catch a movie in the evening at Sun Plaza. And yes, we watched The Eye 10. HAHA. I so couldnt believed that I actually spent $8.50 to scare myself but it wasnt that bad. The movie wasnt THAT scary and horrifying, the story was alright and some scenes was pretty disturbing. My take on this movie? Watch it if you have extra chinks.

Miss Singapore Universe 2005 was BAD. The girls werent that pretty and intellectual as the previous years' batches. When the winner was crowned, the crowd didnt really showed much enthusiasm and support. Kinda awkward lah, but hey what do you expect from our lion city ya? Haha. That girl from St Nicks, Rebecca something was really sweet and pretty but SERIOUSLY, she sucked at anwering questions lah. She was like contradicting whatever she was saying and visibly trying to say whatever she could think of on the spot. TOTAL CRAP sia.

I received my new timetable already. I end the latest on MONDAY and WEDNESDAY at 5.15pm and earliest on Friday at 12.45pm. Wednesday is my CCA day by the way. I've decided to take economics instead of CL A. I know Im being irritatingly-indecisive but Im sorry, it's just that Im dealing with a restriction of taking only 3A subjects and I really wanna pick a combination which Im comfortable with. I have a pre-u 2 friend who was an OGL in the second Orientation, she wasted one whole year in commerce and she suddenly thought of coming to arts and so, this year she transferred to arts! I dont quite like the idea of regretting your choice at the later stage of education. It's really sticky and sad.

I love my acjc handbook given by my brother. It keeps me organized though I will be having yet another handbook from Millennia, but then again, the main reason why I like the book so much is the picture I have in it. It's a picture of three person smiling really happily in the MI canteen. They have forged really a sweet and strong bond that right now, facing the fact that they are no longer in the same school is really painful. BUT, it's a signal of a new beginning. Im sure many good and fortunate things will come and time will not erase the great times they had spent together as pals.

alrighto.

2005-04-01T17:25:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Ashlee Simpsons - Pieces of Me

Im in class 05A3. The class of Geoggers and Econs students. Of course some of us are taking English Literature and the rest Biz Management. I kinda like my new class actually, really nice and friendly people! Im sure with time to come, I will be totally bonded with my class 05A3. Man! I am having a split decision right now. I am contemplating whether should I take Economics or Chinese A. I have no idea lah since both of them have its pros and cons. Let's see:

Geog/Econs/Lit
PRO: eligible for NUS Law and I most probably already have basic knowledge of corporate and commercial law in one of the modules im studying in NUS. Also, I like economics too since it gives me a better idea of how it works as a social science and how the economies and industries work.

CON: Though I scored an A for econs in the first three months but I dont know if that's a good enough motivational factor for me to remain as an econs student for three solid years in MI. It has some element of Mathematics in it but yeaa, I am kinda put off by that lah.

Geog/CL A/Lit
PRO: A divine combination of Humanities and Languages. enough said.

CON: If I dont take econs, I might not be able to foundationalise my basic concepts of corporate knowledge and yes, I might be at a losing end when I compete with other students in NUS Law. I have to pass all modules before I go on getting my degree right? I cant just do well in the rest and fail my commercial law module.

Well, I am SO stuck in the middle can. Seriously, this dilemma will be solved if only CI is allowed to let students take 4 A level subjects instead of 3. It's kinda irritating lah. So now, I have NO idea what should I take.

Ladies and Gentlemen,
Passion or Reason?

2005-03-27T01:43:00.000-08:00

Whoa. FOUR CANTO AND CHINESE DVDs in three days with my mom. Haha. I kinda enjoy the time spent with my mom though. Anyways, SKOOL TOMORROW.

EXCITED? Hmm.
MASCOT Competition tomorrow!
our mascot is a lembu, yes a cow.

GAMES TOMORROW. but aiya, not playing. still healing from stomach problems. but shall cheer for my OG 10! Then again, so weird lah. I dont really know them since I was kinda missing in action for the past two seshs of orientation. Haha never mind, shall do some major ice-breaking tomorrow nor.

tonight another DVD! haha. and rest early.

ok.
indecisiveness again.

geog or hist.

AIYA

2005-03-25T10:50:00.000-08:00

Plugged: some irritating canto radio station my Mom is listening to. CANTO TECHNO. BEAT THAT. heh.

Anyways, for the past one week and three days, I've been suffering from stomach problems due to unhealthy lifestyle(i.e not eating right, lack of fibre and lack of exercise). It isnt much pain actually(thank god) but more of uneasiness and discomfort which was superbly irritating can. Im feeling a little better already, but I after this "ordeal", Im determined to lead a healthy lifestyle and stay free from FATTY food and UNHEATLTHY activities. I will and I must!!! =)

Went out with NJ and Azi yesterday. We went to watch Miss Congeniality 2 and man, it was so goddamn worth the money lah! We watched at Lido and the theatre was packed. I had such a great time laughing and laughing like a mad cow. We then walked around and chatted. It was nice to just FINALLY catch up with Azi since she is always oh-so-ever busy with her NYP Nursing course and drama commitments. And yes! NJ and I passed Azi her birthday present - a book by Marian Keyes. WOOT.

I went to the market today with my mom and haha, I can never handle marketing well. All I did was to just stand there and watch like a moron. I did helped to carry the groceries though! I am SO thoughtful. =)

MI's Orientation 2 continues on Monday again. It's so deja vu lah. I seriously have NO idea why, and WHY do I even bother to come for the orientation. It's so boring to go through the WHOLE thing again. I came only for the first day of Orientation when I had to go off early since I was having stomach problems. Sheesh! My OG 10 is really lively. We have a name and it's soooooo LAME and SOOOOOOOOOOOOO childish that it will seriously kill me if I put it online. Hope to get better and hang out with the Tenners! HAHA.

I've decided to take the same subjects I've taken in the first three months. I will be taking these subjects: General Paper, AO Chinese Language, Geography, English Literature and Economics. Yes, 5 subjects to take in the A Levels examinations. I dont wanna take 4As since it is kinda stressful and 3 pure arts subjects are enough to get me insane. HAHA NOT THAT BAD lah, but close to that yes? ;)

I shall work hard and NO MORE slacking and procrastinating.

I have to!

Ok time to go chill!

2005-03-15T08:26:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway, Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Mile

Woo boy. It has been a long time since I updated my weblog right? Nothing really interesting happened lately, not that anything was really that interesting for me to ramble about too. Woohoo. Let me give you some idea what did I do:

- went shopping over and over again in town
- movies
- ACS Barker carnival
- lunches and high tea sesh
- hung out with NJ! woot
- went to visit Yee Kien at Stargate
- went out with yet another junior, Weili
- went out with my ex 5A1 classmates =)
- promised to watch SYF drama rehearsals once term 2 starts!
- mugged a little
- and yes, SLACKED like a cow.

I basically did just that. And yes, I find that really therapeutic and relaxing. Recently, I also spent some time at home thinking about my future and formulating some plans. It's just so amazing how fast I've grown up and really, it felt like I was 6 years old yesterday. Now, I am standing tall and proud as an 18 years old young adult, ready to face new challenges and diversities. It's such a magical wake up call for me that I am no longer in a "spoonfed" learning environment. I am in the midst of a transition from secondary school to pre-university level.

To tell you the truth, I find that really scary. I just have NO idea and I mean, really absolutely ZILCH idea what to expect of myself. I really want to do well in Millennia and hopefully well enough to qualify myself for NUS's Law. Apparently, so many other elites from various JCs and CI are aiming the same faculty Im going and yes, having an elder brother who always consistently do WAY better than me sure does not help a bit. But then again, I am not going to let ANYONE and ANYTHING deter me from following my dream. I will do my very best AND WORK HARD!

Next, friends. I have really made so many good friends in MI that it's really difficult to see them go next Tuesday. But then again, I cant do or say anything much but just my heartfelt blessings to all of them that they will do well in their colleges and polytechnics and NEVER EVER give up in your dreams. FOLLOW IT. I know things will not be the same once they leave 05A1 and Millennia but I totally understand that. Nothing is forever, that is for sure. Still, I wish that all of us will still remember one another and we can still keep in touch and yes, HANG OUT whenever we can! YES? YES! Heh. =)

I am dead lethargic now since I was mugging in the library for the entire afternoon but I just have to drop this really meaningful quote:

Everyone wants to ride with you in the limo, but what you need is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.

Good night.

2005-03-11T03:02:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Simple Plan - When I'm With You, Jay Chou - Yuan You Hui, Fen Lie

Am busy uploading new Friendster photos right now. I know how can I ever be awake in such an unearthly hour of the morning. Seriously, I have NO idea why! I just cant get to sleep and I totally hate insomnia. It sucks away all your energy at night and making you groggy in the morning. How sadistic can insomnia get?

Went out to meet Wong Ci, Yunzhi, Joette and Dinah today! The sky looked really gloomy and dark and it's obvious that an impending heavy downpour is befalling on the rich soil of Singapore. Yet, I am still SO ecstatic to meet all of them at Plaza Singapura. We just walked and chatted. I then took a bus with Dinah and Joette to have my dinner at PS and bought some finger food. Went to Joette's house to watch Chase!. Loads of fun chatting today! Chatted with Yunzhi and Joette on the phone last night. Damn nice.

05A1's outing trip to East Coast Park + KBox is postponed to next Tuesday! I seriously cant wait for the day man! Hopefully we can have so much fun hanging out and pissing each other off again! I LOVE 05A1 to the core: especially friends like Joette!, Dinah!, Yunzhi!, Joyce!, Sheena!, Wong Ci!, Cheryl Yeo!, Noreen, Shiva, Huiling, Nicole, Michelle, Suhaila, Charis, Debra, Janice, Ian, Khen?, Halim, Hafiza, Cheryl Chang, Jamie, Benita!

I promised my brother and even NJ to study really hard during the March Holidays and to do well in my promotional examinations this year! And not forgetting to *sigh* pass my Emaths(groan!), seriously, I DONT CARE. Haha okay, I do lah, but it's damn irritating to start doing EMaths all over again when other people have already cleared it off long ago with a grade of at least D7. I SO need to start practising and make sure I get at least a D7 in order to stay in Millennia! Man, I sure dont want to be kicked out by Millennia lah! I am SO into the MI culture and I will seriously KILL myself if I cant get to stay in MI!

If I pass my Emaths with a C6, I am allowed to consider a JC education next year, but what the hell lah, no difference! I will still take three years to do my A Levels. So even if I make it to ACJC or even NYJC, I will still stay in Millennia.

We bring glory to Millennia cuz our spirit will NEVER falter! WOOHOO!!!
LOL.

Finally. I had enough of him. I still do respect him as a good friend but I seriously doubt things will ever be the same again. It's not likely after all the words and things have been said and done. I wont say much but I just hope that he will be happy and leading a really fulfilling life. That's all I'm asking for. Then again, sometimes what you're looking for is right where you've left it behind.

I am really excited to start lessons proper after the March holidays! I wonder who will be my new classmates whom I will be spending with for the next three years in Millennia. I do hope I can find realllllyyyyy cool friends like my friends in first three months! Im sure the journey to A Levels will not be an easy and smooth-sailing one, but all Im asking from myself is faith and determination to keep my dreams going and not let procrastination and disbelief affect me.

I have so many things I would like to accomplish in MI:
- straight As
- hang out with NJ!!! <3<3<3
- school team in MI's debate team
- join drama
- join rugby again!
- bond 05A1(new) together!
- join MI's student council
- lose some weight(i repeat, SOME)
- hang out with 05A1(PAE) as oftenly as possible

Not too daunting...
RIGHT???

2005-03-05T18:40:00.000-08:00

Millenna Institute Memoirs?

I've been going out with my classmates that Ive lost track of my blogging momentum. My first three months in Millennia Insitute with my beloved class of 05A1 will be coming to an end once the March holidays start. Really, just three months and I've made SO many new friends and in fact really really good friends. Transitioning to a new level of education, especially at the pre-university level I've feel as though I've grown up a little and see things in more perspectives.

Most of my classmates are going to colleges and polytechnics and I've got a feeling that Im the only one remaining in Millennia. Im cool with that, really. Still I wont deny the fact that Im feeling really really sad that my clique will be leaving me to somewhere they truly (well, at least to me) belong. I can only pray with my fervent heart that they will continue to soar high and scale their abilities to greater heights in wherever they are. I do hope that we will continue to meet up no matter what and yes, I will miss them dearly.

Im gonna write each and everyone of them a letter and yea hopefully able to successfully convey my thoughts and emotions to them without being verbally-stunned.

Joyce, CAUGHT! is such a great production! WE ROCK aight?

2005-03-02T04:08:00.000-08:00

My O Level results:

EL - B3
CL - A1
Emaths - F9
Comb. Humanities - A2
Comb. Science - B3
Art and Design - A2

L1R5 - 20
L1R4 - 11

Yes, I failed my Emaths so that makes me ineligible for JC education. I'm cool with that actually, cuz I can still remain in Millennia. I dont mind using three years to prepare for my A Levels. I dont want to risk taking my A Levels in 18 months(JC). I have many incentives to stay in Millennia(toh tuck campus):

- nice uniform
- suited to environment
- taking ALL ARTS subjects except Maths
- avenge my loss in debate
- prove to JC students that I will do well in MI too.

My teachers and friends are congratulating me since I've done well in my other subjects. Haha, no one got a distinction for EL in Sec 5 cohort la. I did well!

Woot.

WE BRING GLORY TO MILLENNNIIAAAA~~~

2005-02-23T03:17:00.000-08:00

Gloria Estefan - Reach

Oh my goodness! It's either the 25th or 28th! In either day, it's just a matter of a few measly days! I am so friggin paranoid and nervous la. Man! What should I do? I know I should be confident with my own ability but then again, no one can be too sure what will happen right? Oh well, most of my classmates are aiming for colleges like sajc, acjc, jjc, pjc, ajc etc. In fact I found out only me, Ian and Jamie are aiming for anglo-chinese la. The rest are planning to study at saint andrew's junior college. It's interesting to see how Wong Ci is planning to study at anderson even though he was from acs barker la. I heard from Ian that there is one pre-u two senior who was from acs barker too. Like woot.

Anyways, applied for my singpass today. had to go all the way down to the CPF building since I've lost my ic last year. damn troublesome la. i could've stayed a lil longer and watch our 05A1 girls competing in the cap's ball and touch rugby carnival. i swear i laughed like a cow with sheena today during geog lecture and home tutor period.

damn! i misplaced my shakespeare worksheet la! i am so friggin dead. die die die! i wanted to do my lit tutorial today la, but oh well. and yes, gotta mug gp and econs tonight. i am gonna prove to that TWO ASSHOLES AND MORONS AND LOSERS in Millennia that in a junior college,

- i will take up a leadership role
- ace my geography with A
- take geog 's'
- ace other subjects

then i will like take my result slip and throw to their fugly faces. dumb piece of lards.

you guys are SO gonna be proven wrong by me cuz you just cant afford to mess with the wrong bitch.

ciao!

2005-02-16T00:01:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Missy Higgins - Scar, Jay Chou - Kai Bu Liao Kou

VDay just passed and I had fun with nj. Gave her a can of bear(how unconventional is that!), a pink rose and a personalised notebook. And she gave me a cute card and personalised handphone chain. WOOT! Thanks sweetie. <3

All of a sudden, as the days approach the Millennians menancingly, we are practically getting hysterical, paranoid, orgasmic(ok maybe not) and excited. Yes, you guessed it, the upcoming release of O Level results in just 9 days. The 05A1 clique seems to be getting to the hype of the result craze and rumours that haha, it created some really funny predictions. Oh well, I had so much fun in school today. Had a great time chatting and joking around with our clique and today's geography lecture was soooo emabarassing! Haha!

The Pre-U ones was sent to the hall for a pricipal's talk on our O Levels results. It was hmm strangely-touching and heartwarming. I really like our MI principal, she is just so ever friendly, warm and on-task. She was talking about the choosing of JCs/CI and of course the polytechnics. Joette, Dinah and myself was like sniggering away and yes, getting a little nervous. Who wouldnt be, right? I really agree with what Mrs Ong said la, it's true that we should choose a JC/CI which really cater to your individual needs and environment. Obviously AC and SA's culture(which Im pretty sure) will suit me the best, but Millennia is also conducive. I dont want to make believe that I cant make it to my ideal college, but still it's good to have a backup plan right?

And Dinah, we dont wanna commit suicide, do we?

Mrs Ong ended the talk by playing us her song sung by her favourite artiste - Ronan Keating. The song was I Hope you Dance. It was really really an emotional song. I was almost brought to tears la... I was reminiscing the first day I arrived in Millennia. It was so lonesome and alienated. I sat at that spot in the hall and wondering, will I really enjoy my stay in MI? Will I fit into the Millennian culture? Will I meet really nice people? Will I enjoy my orientation? Will I make my mark in MI?

I'm glad I did.

The atmosphere in the hall was really sad and perhaps, anticipating with excitement? To move on to somewhere else where they truly belong, or even to remain in the status quo and be part of the family.

Who knows what the future might bring?

ac! ac! ac!
HAHA.

2005-02-11T08:31:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Zhou Jie Lun - Duan Le De Xuan

I had like SO much fun today! Went out with my beloved class of 05A1 for a steamboat session in Marina South and it was so hot that it burnt my socks! Dont get me wrong,I wasnt referring to the temperature but the atmosphere. Man I love my class SO much. We met up together and apparently Ian and Joette was so super late since they got off the wrong stop. Saded can. We went to Chin Huat Steamboat and yes, we ate and ate and ate. It was so funny cuz we kept on laughing and people around us was like staring at us in bewilderment. Maybe they thought we were a bunch of spastic kids. And yes, I bet we took about 100 photographs using Joyce and Joette's digicam. Shall upload them once they sent me the albums. WE ROCKED.

Went to the big field to walk around and chat. We took photos, again. -_- and Ian bought sparklers! We were going so wild and crazy la. The shop uncle was so nice to help us light the sparklers and all. Cool uncle. We went to the arcade to ride on the daytonas and played with this shooting disc game. And off we went to home.

I really really and genuinely enjoyed myself today. I've been to steamboat sessions with my friends and today's one with 05A1 was simply magnificent. We were all able to connect with one another and we just simply rocked. It's gonna be damn hard to leave each other when we receive our results back in two weeks time.

Im beat.

2005-02-09T18:28:00.000-08:00

It's the second day of the Lunar New Year and yes, I dont think I will be going anywhere today. I want to stay home and slack. Yes, slack. Slacking is fun. But hey, I dont slack when I mug k? Good right? I am so smart. Ok I am digressing. ANYWAYS, yesterday I went to my grandma's house and just a house alone, I collected 178 bucks. Cool right? I am keeping some of it since this weekend I will be out to town with ma peeps! I need this holiday to keep my mind in peace and really relax...since I forsee a really scary day approaching me menancingly.

Just looked at the ACJC yearbook 2003 and I really wonder, will I ever get to become part of the ACS family?

Damn.

2005-02-08T23:11:00.000-08:00

I had so much fun in school today. Went back to Millennia to experience my first ever non-evg Chinese New year celebration. I must say, it's really really interesting and different. No offence to Evergreen, but I must say JC/CI celebrations are not as budget as EVG and so much more organized. I took like so many photos with my classmates using Joette and Joyce's camera. Haha. So cute la...I absolutely love 05A1. MI!

Sigh. I was feeling emo just now when I was travelling back home after my reunion dinner at my grandma's. I kept thinking about what my Uncle said to me, something about how my future will become bleak and shattered if I dont enter college or centralised institute, i.e, if i dont take my A Levels, I will probably not make it to a university. I dont know, I feel so ... anxious. In two weeks time, my O level results will be released. It will be a crystallisation of my hard work in 2004 and I dont think I want to be disappointed at all when I receive the result slip.

One part of me is anxious to get my result slip back but i am still holding back. A lack of confidence, you might say? I dont know, I see myself as an optimist. But in such a momentous moment, even an optimist will not do wonders. Ok Im not making much sense, am I? I am freakin nervous la. I just want to get out of Millennia soon, to go some place where I truly belong. One thing's for sure though: the moment i've been waiting for...is coming reallllyyy soon.

It's gonna be a long day tomorrow. But hey, it's the festive period! Must have fun mingling and collecting more moolah. Haha oh well, I am planning to go shopping after my new year for a sling bag. Hmm.

Alright, got to go.
Gong Xi Fai Cai.

2005-02-05T17:02:00.000-08:00

Just had my breakfast. Oh well, it has been a great learning experience to be part of the debate team in Millennia. We didnt make it to the semi-finals of the NYJCs, but the skills and knowledge I've garnered from the adjudicators are indeed insightful and fruitful. I will definitely work on my debate style and read up even more current affairs, and ladies and gentlement, after first three months, I will definitely be back in the Nationals representing my college. I assure you that. I will be back...stronger.

Now that the debate season is finally over, I can really spend more time catching up on my school work. I have 1 geography tutorial, 2 economics tutorials and 1 gp essay(requested by my teacher). I have like so many other revision to do la. Some of the people I know dont really want to study much in the first three months, but I think that's foolish la. Three months is a long period of time and many concepts can be mastered and these concepts are essential to build up a strong foundation. I cant afford to waste my time and do nothing but fool around. Come on man, I'm turning 18 years old this year and I definitely expect more from myself. Besides, once I enter a college, I wouldnt want to waste so much time catching up on first three months work. My aim in J1 is to take S Papers by the end of the year. Preferably Literature or Geography.

Went out with Madeline yesterday. I had SO much fun! Thanks ah. We went to town to have a really late lunch since I had to rush down to Somerset from Nanyang JC. We then walked around town and caught up with each other's lives. Shame that she had to meet her parents at 830pm or else we couldve walked home together and perhaps crapped even more. Oh well, it was just great to see my buddy around. Hope to see her soon in haha, a few months time?

I have people in Millennia who keep on asking me what kind of music do I listen to. I tell you now:

Punk rock
- Simple Plan
- Blink 182
- Green Day
- Good Charlotte
- Yellowcard

Alternative
- Coldplay
- Dishwalla

Others
- John Mayer
- Nelly
- Ryan Cabrera
- Christina Aguilera
- Vanessa Carlton

These are my favourite genres of music. So quit asking me again, aight?

So sorry to my 05A1 clique...cant join you guys in town today. I need some rest and catching up in school work to do. But you guys have fun yea? See ya in school guys. =)

Oh well, I got to go.
To god be the glory.

2005-01-29T09:14:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Zhou Jie Lun - Kai Bu Liao Kou, Lifehouse - Everything.

Hey there!!! So many things have been happening lately and it's really hard to explain it all at once, so tell you what, i shall do it in point form so it will be concise and easy to comprehend eh?

1. My brother just came back from NS. Oh well, for a weekend bookout but hey, i am just glad that he is still doing fine cuz I really miss my brother a lot a lot. I miss those days when I would distubed him with my childish and senseless pranks and also to keep pestering him to help me with my sciences and maths!

2. 05A1. I love my clique!!! Whenever i think about the completion of first three months, I feel so sad and i just wanna cry! Haha. I know it sounds totally corny but I will miss them so so so much. We hang out together in skool and even outside skool! I was so touched when dinah, joette, ian and sheryl yeo was waiting for me in the canteen. I was like SO touched la since I had to complete my debate briefing first. Man! These people just so honest and intelligent. LOVE YOU GUYS!!! <3

3. NJ. I love you even more more more!!! You are my sister, buddy, best friend and soul mate!!! <3 <3 <3

4. NYJC Invitational Debates. I got into the final fives. All of my team mates got in!!! Minyi and Shakirrah! We rule. But hey, I am glad to work with my other team mates, Rajes, Sakun and Sadia. We got out motion and it's an economics-based motion. Did some research today but didnt really pursued with it since I wanted to mug a little geography and rest! Shall do intensive research on Sunday!

5. Serena Williams won the Australian Open! YOU GO GURL.

6. Ian recommended me to Fountains of Wayne. Thanks bro!

7. Hung out with Cheng En and Arifah recently. MISS YOU GUYS LIKE MAD.

8. hanging out with Madeline next saturday after my NYJCs!

9. Made more friends in MI. Woooooohoooo!!!

10. chatted with jiayi and huiqi. miss them so much! i miss my art class and 5A1.

Anyways, it's gonna be a month and yes, time passes really fast and soon I will be getting back my O levels results. I honestly find O levels chicken as compared to the A Levels curriculum. It's a major transition. It's a really huge jump and the workload is increasing ah and you gotta juggle with other school events. It's insane. But I'm enjoying it. I am really enjoying my time in Millenia. I am going to uphold the true Millennian spirit and of course shine in the NYJCs next saturday! GO TEAM MI!

Alright ciao.

2005-01-26T03:28:00.000-08:00

Let me take this opportunity to thank Minyi and Shakirrah(my two debate team mates) for really sticking by together with me during our debate preparation and we won the debate today!

Haha. We brought down the proposition's case! That is like SO cool can? Days of practising and preparing hasnt gone to a waste and man, I am still suffering from post-debate vibes. Minyi's speech was smooth and really filled with conviction la, and Sha was forceful and really did well as a second speaker. Overall, I felt that our team really did well and as what the adjudicators said, articulate and fluent than the proposition. The adjudicators said I did very well and I have a flair for debate. Haha didnt expect to be the best speaker la but all I can say is I am just glad the selections is over. The selected final fives will be out tomorrow No qualms over it. Fingers crossed, though.

Skool was fun as usual with my reaaaallly cool clique of 05A1. I seriously love them to pieces nor. Written my first GP essay today and I thought it wasnt a bad attempt, really! Woohoo. Aiyo, later have a lot of work and revision to do man. Must catch up! Had HT with Mr Eric Ng and we had a lot of laughters and teasings la. It was good times, definitely. Our class is organising a fund-raising on V-Day for our Millienia building fund. Hmm. It's gonna be fun filled with sweet activities. Hope our fellow millennians from Pre-U 1 to 3 can support us!

Today's trip home was like so tiring. The train and bus was like so packed with people and I could distinctively smell the odours and stenches from their bodies. Fuiyo, damn disgusting sia. But anyways, I am like mighty shagged now but shall chill for a little while more then mug.

eh, Zhou Jie Lun's Kai Bu Liao Kou is really nice.

Good night.

2005-01-25T02:25:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Fountains of Wayne - All Kinds of Time

Good day people. Just woke up from a short afternoon nap, and yes it's a daily routine already that I will try to get a few shut-eyes before I start doing my work in the late-evening or at night. It's crazy if you dont, really. You just gotta rest and perhaps soothe yourself before you can even start to mug at night. Oh well, at least that's what I've been doing for the past few years and my energy level has been constant. Ok I know, you will go, "do i look like i care".

School has been fun! I love ALL my cool friends in my 05A1 clique. We will be hanging out together in skool hours and sometimes we will head to town and chill out! I am so gonna miss my clique after my first three months in MI end. Seriously la, I cant imagine myself at the last day of skool, it's gonna be so sad and heart-wrenching to even walk out of the skool, knowing that you might not be seeing some or all of your friends already. But I really do hope that no matter where we go, we will still stay in touch with one another and really have fun in whatever they do. =) Alright peeps?

Debate selections in on tomorrow after it was postponed on Monday. I just have to drill in my speech after I finish my workload la. I need to do my tutorials and revise my concepts. I know some of my friends will go "wah lao mug for what" but I dont know, I am yout typical classic nerd la, but hey at least I'm a COOL and FUN nerd k? I dont wear thick glasses and mug every single day and not having any social fun at all. I dont! I just believe in maximising my potentials during my first three months in MI. And I'm gonna do just that yea?

All my sec5 classmates are getting apprehensive and paranoid with next month's GCE O Levels results release. Well, I was getting a little nervous yesterday evening that haha, NJ had to keep consoling and encouraging me. But seriously, I have to do well for my O Levels la. I've put in so much effort over the years just for that one moment, in which it determines your future destination for the next two or three years. I definitely want to go acjc but my back-up plan would be cjc. so it's acjc, sajc, nyjc, cjc. Of course, if I fail my O levels, I wouldnt mind remaining in MI for the three years pre-U course la. Still, I have the confidence that I will do well this time around with absolutely NO screw-ups or whatsoever! I must get into to the skool that I want!

Shared this with my Lit class today:

if you dont like my apples,
dont shake my tree,
i'm not after your boyfriend,
he's after me.

-- Anon.

Oh well, it's not that I dont understand this poem but I am just baffled by the way Anon has written this poem. What was he thinking when he wrote these four lines? Why compare the chasing of boyfriend with apples? Any imagery effect he wanted to create?

Good evening.

2005-01-23T03:18:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Jay Zhou - Xing Qing

Just came back from town with my classmates and MI friends. It was a rather simple yet funny day. Oh well, it's always funny being with my cool classmates. They are just so ever friendly and amicable. We went to have lunch and later hung out in town to window-shop. I wanted to scout for a slingbag but I couldnt spot any really cool bags! I guess I will just have to wait till Chinese New Year is over and I will get my slingbag and tshirts. Went to the pasar-malam to get three pairs of ankle-socks. I miss my adidas shoes and I will put those on for skool tomorrow.

I've been really busy with my debate speech since tomorrow I will be having my debate selections in the afternoon. As much as I really want to be good enough for the main team, I do hope that I can produce my "personal best" results and give my best speech ever. I've yet to start mugging in the weekends, and that's something which I definitely dont feel proud of. I hope I can finish up my conclusion, practise my speech and start doing my geography tutorials. I have to revise my Economics too. I love econs a lot and I dont want to start off the year by doing badly in a new subject like econs.

I've promised to start serious mugging and revision from next week onwards. No more slacking and er slacking? Haha.

Alright got to go.

2005-01-18T06:05:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Jay Chou - Qing Tian, Nitty - Nasty Girl, Simple Plan - Addicted

Whoa. I am back here blogging, once more! Anyways, as usual, been really busy with skool and it has become so hectic that I wasnt feeling well a few days ago but I'm feeling so much better now. Praise the Lord. Tutorials are like flowing in like mad and I have to attend long long lectures every single day in MI. It's not bad la, but it gets too taxing at times. But hey, I'm still coping well yea?

Been preparing my debate selections which is on next Monday. Tomorrow have to meet up with Sha and Minyi to finalise our speeches and start sparring. I am feeling a little apprehensive, it's like I cant afford to screw up on Monday or else there goes NYJC debates.

Today skool was fun! Had Literature Paper 8 this morning which was so interesting, later had Geography tutorials and GP turorials. I love GP a lot. It inspires me to really write well and to think critically. Nevertheless, I do hope that I can score an A for GP la, since it's a language component right? During breaks(we had two today!), our clique went to the hall after we ate together, and we took PHOTOS! Haha we were like laughing and laughing like crazy and I had SO much fun in the hall.

YAY! MI 05A1 rules the arts faculty!!!

Back row: Dinah(chij st nicks), Sheryl Yeo(Broadrick Sec), Ian(ACS Barker), YunZhi(St Josephs Institution), Me(EVG nor)

Front row: Sheryl Sim(chij st nicks), joette(chij st nicks), louisa(chij st nicks)

my fave trio. Ian, Joette and Me!!!

Me and the spunky Dinah!

Me and the pretty Joette!

yandao-kias! yunzhi me and ian!

I am gonna miss all of them when we end of three months course at the end of next month.

joette, ian and myself have decided to choose our jcs together(if we have the capability la):

first choice: acjc
second choice: sajc
third choice: cjc/nyjc

sigh. gotta mug.

2005-01-15T09:26:00.000-08:00

Plugging: Ou De Yang - Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu (lol)

School has been really crazy for the past few days. The transition to JC/CI is horrible, not in the sense that I hate it but it's different. When you are in secondary school, you are pretty much being spoon-fed in so many ways. But now, you are on your own. And with that, I have like so many assignments and revision to do. I know I'm whining right now but I cant help it. The stress is building up to a climax and it's insanely-exhausting.

Yesterday was a short day. We had PE and haha, I slacked with my friends and didnt really bothered doing much workout. MI's PE lessons are very military-like and some of them was complaining how cliched the school can possibly get. Oh well, it does gets a little lame at times but hey, it's an insight to the real NS life in the army right? Hung out with my classmates during break and later chatted with my other friends from my OG, Qihui, Angela and Aaron(from FMSS). We were like crapping and gossiping and later I was talking about the upcoming NYJC Debates Invitational and apparently one of Qihui's friend, Minyi actually took part too. I then got to know her during break and yeaa, she seemed really nice.

General Paper lecture after that. My new lecturer, Mr Tan. Oh well, he is alright, meaning his explanations and points are well-explained. But most of my classmates prefer Mr Darren Chan. He is a better GP lecturer, in the sense that he was able to engage with us on the topics we would be discussing. GP lesson was really intriguing though since we were talking about Gender Roles. Really sensitive yet important topic in today's challenging world. Some guy from ACS(Br) was like shouting out arguments and this girl from Bukit Batok Secondary was counter-arguing it but it became so rowdy and lame that most of us got irritated by them. Kids.

Had Econs tutorial. Miss Yap is our new econs tutorial teacher and at the first impression, I didnt really fancy her and in fact felt kinda threatened by her intimidating presence. But soon, once she started the lesson, she is so motherly-like and we enjoyed the tutorial a lot. Had fun sitting with my clique and we were like laughing and enjoying ourselves doing the first classwork together. We were given homework with MCQs, Data-Response Questions(DRQs) and essay questions. Oh wow, we have economics homework. Sigh.

It was dismissal and yes, Joette asked me to join the clique to have lunch in town but I couldnt since I was rushing to meet up with the rest for the debate briefing. I'm so sorry Jo. Ian didnt go as well, saw him playing soccer at the basketball court. Haha. that slow poke. I went to meet Mdm Mesenas at the study area with the other 9-10 debaters. We were briefed for the NYJC debates, and later we went to form our teams for the selections. The winners will be in the main team and will be representing Millennia Institute for the competition. Since there were more girls to just mere 3 boys, I suggested to draw lots so we can pick the girls. (LOL) I was in team 1, with Minyi(yes, that girl whom I knew during break and she's from Fairfield Methodist) and Shakirrah(Jurong Secondary). Both of them are really nice and friendly, and really eloquent. Minyi is very confident and fluent while Shakirrah is eloquent too but more like a thinker than a speaker. We then started to "bond" together as the entire debate team in MI and had so much fun exchanging contacts until Mdm Mesenas came up with photocopied contact lists. -__-|||.

My team will be in the opposition team in the upcoming selections on 24th of January. The motion we've picked is This House would abolish the death penalty. I know I know, a really common debated issue but hey, it's for selection purposes only. So in this case, we will be opposing the proposition from abolishing the death penalty since we believe that death penalty is the way to go to deter people from commiting crimes and so on and so forth.

I was so beat by the time I was returning home but still I thought the day did went off well and I've come to a realisation that I have so many assignments to complete during the weekends(meaning today and tomorrow):

- Geography tutorial (Tourism Geography)
- Literature tutorial (Paper 8)
- Economics tutorial (Chapters 1-3)
- GP revision (social issues I notes)
- GP tutorial (GCE A Levels 2003 Paper II)
- Geography revision (Tourism Geography notes)

Not only the amount of homework is going to stretch me in so many ways, but also I will have to attend an exhibition debate organised by the Debate Assocation Singapore at JRL. Hope most of my debater mates will come. But nevertheless, I think this debate workshop is kinda important for me since it will run my debating momentum and I wont be having any frights or pre-shocks when it comes to the selections.

Next Monday I will be having debate trainings with Minyi and Shakirrah. Like groan, I still have my class committee duties to do at home. Argh!!! When it gets crazy, it really does!!! I think I do seriously need to organize my time well so I wont succumb to any sorts of paranoia or depression.

Oh well,
that's life in MI for you.

Good day to all!

2005-01-12T01:07:00.000-08:00

Plugged: Dishwalla - Angels or Devils

Hey there! Skool has been really hectic and I've been too tired to blog or even to chat with anyone online. I definitely love skool man. I am having way too much fun in MI that yes, I think I am on the verge of going insane. Haha pardon the exaggeration. Anyways, these past few days in MI have been eventful. I went out to town with my 05A1 friends - Ian, Dinah, Joette, Louisa, Cheryl and Pebbles(from science). Been attending mass lectures and yes, it's very tiring lor. I am definitely proud to say that I did not fall asleep at any lectures SO FAR. Woohoo. But seriously, I really enjoy all the lessons that I'm attending cuz they are my favourite subjects and there's NO MATHS. How cool is that?!

I've made numerous friends in Millennia and I feel really loved and blessed to be in this skool. Dont ask me why, but I really do. I've joined the NYJC Invitationals Debate team in MI and hopefully more details will be given to me soon ah. I am planning to join rugby too but it seemed impossible cuz our cohort is too large to have mass CCA orientations so oh well, shall wait and see.

And GROAN, my clasmates have selected me to become 05A1's class rep. Seriously, I didnt feel proud of myself or so delighted to be a rep cuz I was hoping to be a GP Rep. Oh well, it's cool to have a leadership role in MI though. It seems that I cant run away from leadership roles in any skools. It's so funny since our "usual" clique in 05A1 were all assuming leadeship roles in our class. WAY AWESOME!

Just got my actual timetable for my first three months since for the past five days, we've been having mass lectures. I end the earliest on Fridays at 1245pm and latest on Wednesdays at 245pm. Oh well it isnt that bad afterall, since some of my friends end like 415pm? I cant possibly imagine myself from studying in the hot, stuffy afternoon.

Oh yes, MI emerged as the champion for Rugby in the Superbowl.

MI! MI! MI!

Haha. Cheap thrill.

Time to log off and mug.

Bye for now.

2005-01-08T17:09:00.000-08:00

The weather is getting erratic,
and so is human nature.

Hey there. Yesterday I hung out with Ivan for the entire day la, buying books and attempting to mug. Both of us mugged econs and I did a ELit before we headed back to Woodlands from NorthPoint. And yes, I finally got my hsnds on Shakespeare's Measure for Measure. Shall read the entire book by tonight. =)

I've nothing much to blog but perhaps, just feeling really nostalgic. I do miss those days when I was in EVG. Especially when I was with the E1 03 and also my beloved 5A1. I realised that I've done so many things, equally good and childish and come to think of it, it felt really stupid yet therapeutic. It feels good knowing that I did have fun in EVG and I've graduated knowing that I've made many friends and of course, made my mark in that skool. I wonder how are all my 5A1s, and yes, the art people. I seriously miss those days when we had to chase around Mrs Leicester for approval of out batik stages. Haha that was so irritating but hilarious.

Mrs Kong, my form teacher last year gave birth to a healthy baby boy earlier this week. I am SO happy for her. I felt a little guilty for not making the time to visit Mrs Kong since I was in skool. But hopefully, I will find some time to go visit her some time soon...

Oh well, going out with Serene later.
Ciao